If I want to, I can have you, baby listen...
AH AH AH AH. Mr Boogie.. something something something.
OHMYGOD. It's beeeeeeeeeeeen wayy too long since I did a mindfuck post here.
It's 4am, and there's nothing for me to do while I wait for my Fany mun to come back from dinner, so I might as well do a little recollection of my life. (I swear to GOD if I re-read this journal a year later, I will fucking cringe at all the things I've said, but hey, IT"LL BE FULL OF LULZ)
So. I have a few things on my mind right now. Happy and beautiful things. and not so beautiful things.
I have a fucking gambling addiction, and I"M ONLY 19. This is not good. I already blew like, ~$150 at the casino in two days. TWO DAYS. For like, nine hours of work. Yeah, fuckmylife. Problem is, I win a bit, and then I lose it all because I don't know when to stop. MOREOVER, my indecisiveness AND moodswings kill me, cuz I don't place the bet when I should have or else I woulda doubled quite a bit.
But seriously, I need to stop going to the casino.... *cries*
ANOTHER THING. I AM IN LOVE WITH RPING. It's like, a new hobby of mine and despite how badly I STILL want to write fanfics (because the world needs more hyukmin, kangmin and haemin), I can't be bothered because I have an AMAZING SUNGMIN MUN AND FANY MUN from leamenoire. They're so precious, seriously. I would totally buy stuff for Sungmin-mun from yesasia, except it'd be creepy cuz I would need her mailing address and such. That's how much I value her as a little sister.
Sungmin keeps my kangmin cravings to a minimum because she's so wonderful, and I pester her with EVERYTHING about my life because I'm weird like that, and we agree that yewon is nasty, and kyu has a lot of protective fans, that 9muses deserve a chance despite for their strategic walking on stage (I LOL'D SO HARD). One word: SHE"S AMAZING. Seriously, her wit, her words, everything is like, top-notch. I LOVE HER.
AND MY FANY MUN. KYAHHH. She's also my anime squealer, DEATHNOTE, GUNDAMSEED. Ahhh. The Kira/Athrun and Light/L snippets that we RP are so helpful to satisfy my cravings because I'm like, 5 years late to GS' fandom and 3 years late to the DN fandom. I fail at timing, okay? But, now we're totally doing a WOOHYUN/ L pairing, because we're awesome like that.
WHICH BRINGS ME TO: INFINITE. They are so precious, and finally I've found a group where I'm actually VERY interested in. Sungjong, Woohyun, Sungyeol, L, Hoya. MY FIVE BB. I don't really like the leader and that Kenya dude, but whatever, I can live with 5.
THEY ARE SO CUTE. And in a bit, I'm probably going to declare Infinite as my main male fandom, and not Super Junior. SNSD and FX are nearly irreplaceable in my heart, and Kara, because Sungyeon and Nicole are awesome, and Gyuri too.
But yeah, byebye SUJU. HELLO Infinite. I already sense it happening because I'm not some rabid fan trying to lurk around for SS3 news, or pics, or fancams, or anything. Except for that Sungmin clip where he stripped and started dancing half naked. Fuck why is my husband so HOT.
INFINITE"S WOOHYUN is like, my new SUNGMIN. He also happens to share the exact same birthday as me, meaning it's destiny. <3333
Sungjong is so diva, I love his girly voice. L IS SO HOT, like his cold personality and his aura, IDEK. HOYA is so fit, ohmygod I want to hug him. Sungyeol is full of adorable, the tall awkward guy of the group. I love themmmmmm.
SO SO SO YEAH. This journal has pretty much turned into a recollection of my thoughts throughout these years of my stay with kpop. Originally, the concept of letters were directed at the fanfics I write, how I write them and send them off for people to read and get returning mail, but now, the concept of these letters, these letters to myself are personal reflections, and I will re-visit them when I fully move on with my life.
Right now, everything in my life is pretty decent, I couldn't ask for more. There's bound to be ups and downs, right?
OHMYGOD. It's beeeeeeeeeeeen wayy too long since I did a mindfuck post here.
It's 4am, and there's nothing for me to do while I wait for my Fany mun to come back from dinner, so I might as well do a little recollection of my life. (I swear to GOD if I re-read this journal a year later, I will fucking cringe at all the things I've said, but hey, IT"LL BE FULL OF LULZ)
So. I have a few things on my mind right now. Happy and beautiful things. and not so beautiful things.
I have a fucking gambling addiction, and I"M ONLY 19. This is not good. I already blew like, ~$150 at the casino in two days. TWO DAYS. For like, nine hours of work. Yeah, fuckmylife. Problem is, I win a bit, and then I lose it all because I don't know when to stop. MOREOVER, my indecisiveness AND moodswings kill me, cuz I don't place the bet when I should have or else I woulda doubled quite a bit.
But seriously, I need to stop going to the casino.... *cries*
ANOTHER THING. I AM IN LOVE WITH RPING. It's like, a new hobby of mine and despite how badly I STILL want to write fanfics (because the world needs more hyukmin, kangmin and haemin), I can't be bothered because I have an AMAZING SUNGMIN MUN AND FANY MUN from leamenoire. They're so precious, seriously. I would totally buy stuff for Sungmin-mun from yesasia, except it'd be creepy cuz I would need her mailing address and such. That's how much I value her as a little sister.
Sungmin keeps my kangmin cravings to a minimum because she's so wonderful, and I pester her with EVERYTHING about my life because I'm weird like that, and we agree that yewon is nasty, and kyu has a lot of protective fans, that 9muses deserve a chance despite for their strategic walking on stage (I LOL'D SO HARD). One word: SHE"S AMAZING. Seriously, her wit, her words, everything is like, top-notch. I LOVE HER.
AND MY FANY MUN. KYAHHH. She's also my anime squealer, DEATHNOTE, GUNDAMSEED. Ahhh. The Kira/Athrun and Light/L snippets that we RP are so helpful to satisfy my cravings because I'm like, 5 years late to GS' fandom and 3 years late to the DN fandom. I fail at timing, okay? But, now we're totally doing a WOOHYUN/ L pairing, because we're awesome like that.
WHICH BRINGS ME TO: INFINITE. They are so precious, and finally I've found a group where I'm actually VERY interested in. Sungjong, Woohyun, Sungyeol, L, Hoya. MY FIVE BB. I don't really like the leader and that Kenya dude, but whatever, I can live with 5.
THEY ARE SO CUTE. And in a bit, I'm probably going to declare Infinite as my main male fandom, and not Super Junior. SNSD and FX are nearly irreplaceable in my heart, and Kara, because Sungyeon and Nicole are awesome, and Gyuri too.
But yeah, byebye SUJU. HELLO Infinite. I already sense it happening because I'm not some rabid fan trying to lurk around for SS3 news, or pics, or fancams, or anything. Except for that Sungmin clip where he stripped and started dancing half naked. Fuck why is my husband so HOT.
INFINITE"S WOOHYUN is like, my new SUNGMIN. He also happens to share the exact same birthday as me, meaning it's destiny. <3333
Sungjong is so diva, I love his girly voice. L IS SO HOT, like his cold personality and his aura, IDEK. HOYA is so fit, ohmygod I want to hug him. Sungyeol is full of adorable, the tall awkward guy of the group. I love themmmmmm.
SO SO SO YEAH. This journal has pretty much turned into a recollection of my thoughts throughout these years of my stay with kpop. Originally, the concept of letters were directed at the fanfics I write, how I write them and send them off for people to read and get returning mail, but now, the concept of these letters, these letters to myself are personal reflections, and I will re-visit them when I fully move on with my life.
Right now, everything in my life is pretty decent, I couldn't ask for more. There's bound to be ups and downs, right?