Downfall of a Madman
Yo, I get down like the energizer bunny
you'd think I got a degree from berklee
the way I dance upon that summit
but I realize you needed more from it
so I took my dreams and placed them back in my toy box
put the box in the closet, hidden away like small pox
I gave you my soul for a chance at a decent bankroll
satisfy materialsm til I felt repressed like a muslim
all that for a life of pettiness
sometimes I wished we were penniless
5 years later
divorce papers
brainwaves nonexistant; like an insentient being
chained resistance
restrained and drained
trained to block the sun out
dormant and sent to orbit
forfeit of my soul, left morbid
the sun shines over the remants of me
my shadow decides to leave and be free
brilliance wasted
I decide to leave this house
bitter tasted
ransacking everything
packing only neccessities
I come across my tox box
pictures of what was once my perfection
feels rejection, a single tear of a virgin
I was the brahman of every sermon
rage pent up brings back lost demons
lingering inside a feeling of passion
I want to set the world on fire!
so I do, and take everything I admire
and set it ablaze
I watch intently as I curse the country
My journey over, I was my own inquisitor
What did I do to deserve this?
I kick the desk, possessed
a single letter falls to the floor
I fumble to get it and run for the door
slowly opening it as I watch the smoke rise
only hoping, my face is tear eyed
my fear lies in sincere goodbyes
" I'm sorry but your words can't make everything okay
Your ideals do not put food on the table
Your empty promises
Your romantic dreams of love making, everything fine, were just lies in this world
What foolish words
Always the vision of a dreamer but you have to face reality
But you wouldn't so I left before I became as as lifeless and lost as you did
Your sacrifices were not ones to be made as crimes that I committed
We became you, and in your delusions I became your enemy
I never was, I was on your side until you decided to stop trying
Life goes on with or without you "
I stand here in the rough grass
sirens blazing I've become an outcast
to everyone including myself
like a broken record I'm stuck in the past
surrounded I fall to the ground with my hands
up in the air, face towards the sun because at last
I realize what was once mine
has left me behind
Life goes on...with or without me...
But, I'll keep dreaming of a day carefree
Dreaming of better days
without worries.
you'd think I got a degree from berklee
the way I dance upon that summit
but I realize you needed more from it
so I took my dreams and placed them back in my toy box
put the box in the closet, hidden away like small pox
I gave you my soul for a chance at a decent bankroll
satisfy materialsm til I felt repressed like a muslim
all that for a life of pettiness
sometimes I wished we were penniless
5 years later
divorce papers
brainwaves nonexistant; like an insentient being
chained resistance
restrained and drained
trained to block the sun out
dormant and sent to orbit
forfeit of my soul, left morbid
the sun shines over the remants of me
my shadow decides to leave and be free
brilliance wasted
I decide to leave this house
bitter tasted
ransacking everything
packing only neccessities
I come across my tox box
pictures of what was once my perfection
feels rejection, a single tear of a virgin
I was the brahman of every sermon
rage pent up brings back lost demons
lingering inside a feeling of passion
I want to set the world on fire!
so I do, and take everything I admire
and set it ablaze
I watch intently as I curse the country
My journey over, I was my own inquisitor
What did I do to deserve this?
I kick the desk, possessed
a single letter falls to the floor
I fumble to get it and run for the door
slowly opening it as I watch the smoke rise
only hoping, my face is tear eyed
my fear lies in sincere goodbyes
" I'm sorry but your words can't make everything okay
Your ideals do not put food on the table
Your empty promises
Your romantic dreams of love making, everything fine, were just lies in this world
What foolish words
Always the vision of a dreamer but you have to face reality
But you wouldn't so I left before I became as as lifeless and lost as you did
Your sacrifices were not ones to be made as crimes that I committed
We became you, and in your delusions I became your enemy
I never was, I was on your side until you decided to stop trying
Life goes on with or without you "
I stand here in the rough grass
sirens blazing I've become an outcast
to everyone including myself
like a broken record I'm stuck in the past
surrounded I fall to the ground with my hands
up in the air, face towards the sun because at last
I realize what was once mine
has left me behind
Life goes on...with or without me...
But, I'll keep dreaming of a day carefree
Dreaming of better days
without worries.