Where do i Belong?
I'm completely lost and have no idea what i can do about it! It is a horrible feeling and i just want to feel like i belong. I'm not fitting into my family and i just really don't know what to do. My 5-bedroom house has turned into a 3-ring circus both of my sisters moved back in because they were having trouble living on their own which i understand them coming back thats probably what i would do. But now i don't have a bedroom and i sleep on the couch. i really just want them to feel at home. well both of my sisters brought roommate's with them. Both of their b/f's are living here and my oldest sister brought her 3 kids also. I just don't know what to do anymore and it hurts you know. I wish i could just feel comfortable in my own house again.
My brother and his girlfriend are having some kind of problems all he said was that she has something on her mind that she isn't telling him and he knows about some of it already i guess but he doesn't want me to help in any way. When i really want to try and help his situation because veronica is a really nice girl and he likes her a lot. But that is just another example of me feeling like i don't belong. Its like i'm the last to know anything between my sisters and brother. Its like they all talk to each other and never come to me for any advice which is weird because i think i give good advice but i guess they would rather talk to each other.
I had my 18th birthday at the beginning of this month and it wasn't bad you know i had cake with my family and i hung out with friends, my parents got me a cell phone and a new purse which i love. but my brother and sisters didn't even get me anything. i understand my sisters only getting me a card you know they are having money issues but my brother didn't even get me a card. He could of made me a card and i would have been happy. i wondered what i should get him for his birthday for like a month before i asked him what he wanted and all he wanted was money. He saves all of his money and couldn't take a dollar out for a birthday card, even uncle Pat the guy who didn't even know my birthday the first 17 years of my life got me a card. i dunno it just bugs me a little.
I wish i could just win the lottery get my own house that way i wouldn't feel so out of place. But i doubt thats going to happen. I think i might just move in with my grandma my mom didn't want me to leave because she would miss me but my grandma lives 6 house down the road i think she would live. but i would still miss her. I dunno i don't want to leave but i don't want to stay. i'm in a pickle and don't know what to do. well i'm glad i got this off my chest Now i'm going to bed.
love you all lots ---------------Megan
My brother and his girlfriend are having some kind of problems all he said was that she has something on her mind that she isn't telling him and he knows about some of it already i guess but he doesn't want me to help in any way. When i really want to try and help his situation because veronica is a really nice girl and he likes her a lot. But that is just another example of me feeling like i don't belong. Its like i'm the last to know anything between my sisters and brother. Its like they all talk to each other and never come to me for any advice which is weird because i think i give good advice but i guess they would rather talk to each other.
I had my 18th birthday at the beginning of this month and it wasn't bad you know i had cake with my family and i hung out with friends, my parents got me a cell phone and a new purse which i love. but my brother and sisters didn't even get me anything. i understand my sisters only getting me a card you know they are having money issues but my brother didn't even get me a card. He could of made me a card and i would have been happy. i wondered what i should get him for his birthday for like a month before i asked him what he wanted and all he wanted was money. He saves all of his money and couldn't take a dollar out for a birthday card, even uncle Pat the guy who didn't even know my birthday the first 17 years of my life got me a card. i dunno it just bugs me a little.
I wish i could just win the lottery get my own house that way i wouldn't feel so out of place. But i doubt thats going to happen. I think i might just move in with my grandma my mom didn't want me to leave because she would miss me but my grandma lives 6 house down the road i think she would live. but i would still miss her. I dunno i don't want to leave but i don't want to stay. i'm in a pickle and don't know what to do. well i'm glad i got this off my chest Now i'm going to bed.
love you all lots ---------------Megan