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I'm doing a little better with this update thing.
My show opens Thursday night. (I'm playing Lola in a production of Damn Yankees for those who don't know). I really wanted to be down to 85lbs. That didn't exactly happen. I'm at 88 right now. But the show runs for 2 weeks, so I can lose 3lbs by next friday def. . I just think it will help me look better on stage, I mean some of the costumes...lets just say non existent. Then I have to keep the weight off for Cabaret . Fat Lauren on stage wearing only lingerie? Not going to happen. I can't let myself be over 90lbs for that show. Especially since the whole point of Sally Bowles is her exuberant sexuality - "doesn't my body just drive you WILD with desire?" .
On other news, I finally got my courage to tell Dan that in this whole two years (well 2 in December) I never stopped loving him in "that way" . Yeah...not a smart move on my part at all. And so now I am again trying to break off the friendship, but he's being stubborn about it. Seriously though, I haven't dated a guy in 2 years and allowed myself to be abused by my ex all while trying to forget about my feelings for Dan, so you'd think he'd be able to accept that this is for the best? Ack. I don't know what I want.
Laundry, then bed, but first, catching up on your journals.
My show opens Thursday night. (I'm playing Lola in a production of Damn Yankees for those who don't know). I really wanted to be down to 85lbs. That didn't exactly happen. I'm at 88 right now. But the show runs for 2 weeks, so I can lose 3lbs by next friday def. . I just think it will help me look better on stage, I mean some of the costumes...lets just say non existent. Then I have to keep the weight off for Cabaret . Fat Lauren on stage wearing only lingerie? Not going to happen. I can't let myself be over 90lbs for that show. Especially since the whole point of Sally Bowles is her exuberant sexuality - "doesn't my body just drive you WILD with desire?" .
On other news, I finally got my courage to tell Dan that in this whole two years (well 2 in December) I never stopped loving him in "that way" . Yeah...not a smart move on my part at all. And so now I am again trying to break off the friendship, but he's being stubborn about it. Seriously though, I haven't dated a guy in 2 years and allowed myself to be abused by my ex all while trying to forget about my feelings for Dan, so you'd think he'd be able to accept that this is for the best? Ack. I don't know what I want.
Laundry, then bed, but first, catching up on your journals.