i hate this feeling
hate the feeling i have rite now.. it wasn't my fault... it wasn't even andy's fault... i just... i feel like i'm to blame some how.. idk...
we got into an accident...nothin big... just a wee fender bender.... but it was all slow motion like and i had de je vou about my dream about heather... none of you guys know about that.. i had a dream that heather threw herself in front of a train and i jumped after her and alls i saw were train lights before i woke up... it was like that.. alls i saw were the car lights... my hands are still shaking... the thing thats keeping me awake is how eerie it is that the accident and my dream ended the same... it was the EXACT same.. i don't even know how to explain how i feel rite now.. sept my head ache...that hurts..(i hit my head a tad on the window..) i'm just.. scared i guess... scared about how andy's parents are taking this mostly... it really wasn't his fault... we were going to turn on a green light and this lady SPED up and hit his back end... he got the ticket for failing to yeild tho...w/e... i'm also mad... cuz when i tried to call mom and tell her wat happened Josh was on the phone and didn't click over... so i couldn't get a hold of any one.. then i tried her cell a few times and got to her.. but still... i cam e home and yelled at josh like there was no tomorow... thats bull crap... that coulda been a serious accident!!! and you want to know wat he said when i told him that..."i don't care'.... nice to know from your twin huh?,,,,so i'm mad...scared...weirded out... worried...shaken up...and ne thing in between that.... idk..i'm out.. bye
"i'm cold and i am shamed..lyin broken on the floor"
torn.... Jess
we got into an accident...nothin big... just a wee fender bender.... but it was all slow motion like and i had de je vou about my dream about heather... none of you guys know about that.. i had a dream that heather threw herself in front of a train and i jumped after her and alls i saw were train lights before i woke up... it was like that.. alls i saw were the car lights... my hands are still shaking... the thing thats keeping me awake is how eerie it is that the accident and my dream ended the same... it was the EXACT same.. i don't even know how to explain how i feel rite now.. sept my head ache...that hurts..(i hit my head a tad on the window..) i'm just.. scared i guess... scared about how andy's parents are taking this mostly... it really wasn't his fault... we were going to turn on a green light and this lady SPED up and hit his back end... he got the ticket for failing to yeild tho...w/e... i'm also mad... cuz when i tried to call mom and tell her wat happened Josh was on the phone and didn't click over... so i couldn't get a hold of any one.. then i tried her cell a few times and got to her.. but still... i cam e home and yelled at josh like there was no tomorow... thats bull crap... that coulda been a serious accident!!! and you want to know wat he said when i told him that..."i don't care'.... nice to know from your twin huh?,,,,so i'm mad...scared...weirded out... worried...shaken up...and ne thing in between that.... idk..i'm out.. bye
"i'm cold and i am shamed..lyin broken on the floor"
torn.... Jess