red nails to come
I am really excited about the Rock the Harbor thing. i think it will be good. of course the more i hype it up in my head the more likely i am to get nervous. it ain't no thang. just keep telling myself that. i'm a little scared that massive amounts of people will show up. but that's a good thing right?
i still can't seem to just sit down write songs. where does the time come from?
soon i have to post some pics, i have some good ones of nice outdoor places on SI. i have been trying to use my camera more. and other creative things. too many, toooooo maaaaany.
i am tired of having such a schizo relationship. maybe schizo isn't technically the right word. it's like 2 completely different situations. 2 completely different people. we get into these ridiculous fights where we both become totally irrational in completely different ways. there is no communicating when this happens. only drama and misery and anger. it's ABSURD because when things are good, they are amazing-good. i'm not even exaggerating. it's like opposite sides of the spectrum. it's not kind of OK and then kind of screwed up. It's completely amazing, or absolutely horrible. is this just my perspective because i'm a person of extremes?
Maybe this IS an exaggeration. i can't tell with myself anymore.
or maybe he really is like 2 different people. the gemini and his evil twin.
the joke is that we fight about stupid shit that isn't that important. but it Becomes a big deal because of all the miscommunication and misunderstandings and other crap that follows.
how the hell do i stop this from happening?
sometimes the shit he says to me when we fight makes me think "wow, i really cannot be with this person"
and then we make up and i think "i couldn't be with anyone else"
this is my life...nothing easy or sensible. always.
if i end up getting screwed over again i am going to become a hermit.
i can't keep getting so emotionally involved and have it go on for so long, just to lose in the end. it takes me way too long to get over things.
some serious communication needs to happen
i still can't seem to just sit down write songs. where does the time come from?
soon i have to post some pics, i have some good ones of nice outdoor places on SI. i have been trying to use my camera more. and other creative things. too many, toooooo maaaaany.
i am tired of having such a schizo relationship. maybe schizo isn't technically the right word. it's like 2 completely different situations. 2 completely different people. we get into these ridiculous fights where we both become totally irrational in completely different ways. there is no communicating when this happens. only drama and misery and anger. it's ABSURD because when things are good, they are amazing-good. i'm not even exaggerating. it's like opposite sides of the spectrum. it's not kind of OK and then kind of screwed up. It's completely amazing, or absolutely horrible. is this just my perspective because i'm a person of extremes?
Maybe this IS an exaggeration. i can't tell with myself anymore.
or maybe he really is like 2 different people. the gemini and his evil twin.
the joke is that we fight about stupid shit that isn't that important. but it Becomes a big deal because of all the miscommunication and misunderstandings and other crap that follows.
how the hell do i stop this from happening?
sometimes the shit he says to me when we fight makes me think "wow, i really cannot be with this person"
and then we make up and i think "i couldn't be with anyone else"
this is my life...nothing easy or sensible. always.
if i end up getting screwed over again i am going to become a hermit.
i can't keep getting so emotionally involved and have it go on for so long, just to lose in the end. it takes me way too long to get over things.
some serious communication needs to happen