i cried for you
i have realized i am a control freak and i nearl lost the one person i truely care and love because of it. i can't believe i have not realized it till now, all i want to do is run to you and say i didin't mean to do it, and i love you, and am sorry for all this shit, but then i realize i would just be throwing one more pitty party for myself and that would be unfair to you. i don't kno how to say it other then i will try harder and be better and not hold you back like i have been, i realize i just need to do the old things and not be so up tight and hard ass. i love you, i will do better.