depression sets in
wow.. im really depressed now... is this all that im good for? i feel ugly and useless... i dont know what to do.. idont even know y i even write in this journal... its not like anyone bothers to read it.. i mean.. my sister... she makes a short and sweet comment every once and awhile but other then that.. nada... it gets no love homies...theres so many things i want to fix and it seems like there is no remidy for them... im alone and the only people that actually give to shits about me are people that i have no interest in... or dont click to well with... damn it im lonely...i know that it sound pathetic but... i see these really cute guys come in to my job and no one even looks at me.. but older stank ass black men.. i mean like 40 year olds and shit... and if they are my age then all they want to do is use me.. it suks ass.. i just want to find someone....i tiered of the games, of being lonely and being used... the way i feel is getting worse and worse by the minute... as i sit here alone.. he can tell his friends and they can laugh.. i cant believe i let my guard down after sooo long... mabye this will help me quit drinking...mabye