A New Kind of Ex
Is there something wrong with me? Really?
I finally made a new guy friend...and that's all he was. He was fun, liked to listen, joked around, was just the right amount of touchy-feely, kind of reminded me of one of my good guy friends from home, and even kept up with the status of my texting...and by that I mean that he knew when I had some left and could get in a fun convo during class. So why did he feel the need to ruin that? I know he doesn't like me...so why did he feel the need to try something? I really thought I was quite blunt. I never sat next to him on a couch, I didn't drunk text/dial him, I always refused to let him get inside info on my pathetic excuse for a love life...so how on earth did he interpret our relationship as one that could eventually incorporate kisses and more??
Why does this happen to me? Why do all guys I try to have as just friends always up and decide to ruin our friendship with an attempt at the whole friends with benefits thing? I've been there done that. Twice. And it has yet to turn out well. The first has a girlfriend now, but continues to treat me as more than just a friend...I think he for some reason believes that I don't count as cheating. The other is just as bad; he won't even look at me unless I talk to him first. I can't even tell if I'm really just that invisible to him...or if he really is ignoring me.
Anyway, this new ex-friend tried to make-out Sunday night. He'd wanted to hang out and hear all about the race...and then he apparently wanted to make out. This really sounds like a pathetic excuse...I know it does...but I was too worn out to even have to go through with getting him off and explaining why it couldn't happen. Eventually, he realized how not into it I was and gave up...but not before he made it nice and awkward.
I then saw him this morning on my way to Maucker. It blew. I'd walked out without a coat, and was freezing to death...but I sucked it up and went out of my way to walk to the front door of the building so that I wouldn't have to talk to him. I hate having to ignore people. It's so inconvenient.
I finally made a new guy friend...and that's all he was. He was fun, liked to listen, joked around, was just the right amount of touchy-feely, kind of reminded me of one of my good guy friends from home, and even kept up with the status of my texting...and by that I mean that he knew when I had some left and could get in a fun convo during class. So why did he feel the need to ruin that? I know he doesn't like me...so why did he feel the need to try something? I really thought I was quite blunt. I never sat next to him on a couch, I didn't drunk text/dial him, I always refused to let him get inside info on my pathetic excuse for a love life...so how on earth did he interpret our relationship as one that could eventually incorporate kisses and more??
Why does this happen to me? Why do all guys I try to have as just friends always up and decide to ruin our friendship with an attempt at the whole friends with benefits thing? I've been there done that. Twice. And it has yet to turn out well. The first has a girlfriend now, but continues to treat me as more than just a friend...I think he for some reason believes that I don't count as cheating. The other is just as bad; he won't even look at me unless I talk to him first. I can't even tell if I'm really just that invisible to him...or if he really is ignoring me.
Anyway, this new ex-friend tried to make-out Sunday night. He'd wanted to hang out and hear all about the race...and then he apparently wanted to make out. This really sounds like a pathetic excuse...I know it does...but I was too worn out to even have to go through with getting him off and explaining why it couldn't happen. Eventually, he realized how not into it I was and gave up...but not before he made it nice and awkward.
I then saw him this morning on my way to Maucker. It blew. I'd walked out without a coat, and was freezing to death...but I sucked it up and went out of my way to walk to the front door of the building so that I wouldn't have to talk to him. I hate having to ignore people. It's so inconvenient.