It's been a while
I have kind of forgotten about my LJ for the past month or so. I don't even know what to write about anymore. For starters, school has been okay. My grades have been okay to say the least. I'm not failing or anything, but they are definitely average. I don't think I'm in any real trouble though. I'm beginning to really dislike my African American Lit class. At first I was kind of psyched for it, because I like that kind of literature but the teacher...her teaching style is really one dimentional (we do the same shit every class) and she totally picks favorites. Oh well, the semester's almost over, I can probably deal with it for another month and a half. In my Brit lit class of about 40, we do these weekly reading responses. The teacher never responds to them, because she gets so many, but she sent me an e-mail telling me how great she thought my "Emma" response was. This made my day at the time sadly...i think i was having a bad week or something, and i really needed the pick me up. Emerson has gotten a lot better this semester, but I still don't feel completely comfortable here. I have that lost in the crowd feeling most days. But I have the castle to look forward to next fall (study abroad), so that will keep me going.
More so than school, what is bothering more than anything is the large numbers of people I know experiencing really shitty things. I don't know if it is just a matter of getting older, you just start knowing more people getting sick/dying, or if maybe just the state the world is in....i really don't know, but it just makes me sad. For example, I can't imagine losing 2 loved ones in the course of 3 days. It's hard enough to lose one...but two? Whoever can survive that one truly is strong. And about about physical health? I know way too many people who are dangerously sick...who may have cancer, who need surgery ASAP, who don't know what exactly is wrong but know it most likely serious. Why is everyone I know just falling apart? It makes me feel so helpless. And it makes me wonder...why now? and why so many people? Maybe it is all just coincidence, or maybe it is the apocolypse after all - but I guess the only next thing I can do is just use my LJ space to say "God, please help all the people who are suffering great losses, who have prevailing health, and experiencing all other tragedies. Please help them by easing the pain and showing them how to get through it..." I guess that is all I really can do. And i mean it...I don't want to put names obviously, because it's not right to announce other people's personal matters (yeah, i finally realized that) so anybody suffering immense pain, i really hope you start to feel better - all of you!
Now a little more random tidbits. Halloween weekend rocked. First I partied in the North End with my Emerson friends. It was at my old roommates apartment, Lydia, and her other roommates and my friends Eva, Sarah, Meghan, Lana & Katie. My friend Liz, who I have 3 classes with, and two with Lydia, was there with her roommate Emily, I also know from a Lit class last semester. Some random things to remember: Random Frank, Random Frank hitting on me, the guy I met from Weymouth who dated a girl from Hull and I told him who she was, going upstairs with Kaia with jell-o shots & vodka to get the X country boys team to come to the party, the South Park Chef who stole my feather boa, the apples in the jungle juice...good times. Then the next night i went to a party in Hingham with all the usuals. Drea had invited me. I got to hang out with so many people I hadn't seen in a while. I love partying there, although I always seem to find myself in a lot of trouble, haha. Mike came home for the weekend, so i was really happy i got to see him. I also met a lot of really cool people. my pictures came out great from that weekend. the next weekend i went to visit Tiff @ Stonehill. Her friends were great - they were all so nice and fun to be around. I learned to how to play kings & fuck the dealer while i was sober, meaning i actually remember how to play both now. I was hitting on just about every boy in sight. Apparently I was saying things like "heeey boys. I'm amanda and i go to emerson. and you'rrrrre cute!". It was a good time, although i think i was a walking AA advertisement that night, haha.
Next week I choose my classes, so I'm sure I'll have an update pretty quickly. im working tonight - the Majestic is doing Sideways Stories from Wayside School (anybody remember those books from middle school???) - i really hope im coat check & can just do work. that's it for now - peace out kiddies.
More so than school, what is bothering more than anything is the large numbers of people I know experiencing really shitty things. I don't know if it is just a matter of getting older, you just start knowing more people getting sick/dying, or if maybe just the state the world is in....i really don't know, but it just makes me sad. For example, I can't imagine losing 2 loved ones in the course of 3 days. It's hard enough to lose one...but two? Whoever can survive that one truly is strong. And about about physical health? I know way too many people who are dangerously sick...who may have cancer, who need surgery ASAP, who don't know what exactly is wrong but know it most likely serious. Why is everyone I know just falling apart? It makes me feel so helpless. And it makes me wonder...why now? and why so many people? Maybe it is all just coincidence, or maybe it is the apocolypse after all - but I guess the only next thing I can do is just use my LJ space to say "God, please help all the people who are suffering great losses, who have prevailing health, and experiencing all other tragedies. Please help them by easing the pain and showing them how to get through it..." I guess that is all I really can do. And i mean it...I don't want to put names obviously, because it's not right to announce other people's personal matters (yeah, i finally realized that) so anybody suffering immense pain, i really hope you start to feel better - all of you!
Now a little more random tidbits. Halloween weekend rocked. First I partied in the North End with my Emerson friends. It was at my old roommates apartment, Lydia, and her other roommates and my friends Eva, Sarah, Meghan, Lana & Katie. My friend Liz, who I have 3 classes with, and two with Lydia, was there with her roommate Emily, I also know from a Lit class last semester. Some random things to remember: Random Frank, Random Frank hitting on me, the guy I met from Weymouth who dated a girl from Hull and I told him who she was, going upstairs with Kaia with jell-o shots & vodka to get the X country boys team to come to the party, the South Park Chef who stole my feather boa, the apples in the jungle juice...good times. Then the next night i went to a party in Hingham with all the usuals. Drea had invited me. I got to hang out with so many people I hadn't seen in a while. I love partying there, although I always seem to find myself in a lot of trouble, haha. Mike came home for the weekend, so i was really happy i got to see him. I also met a lot of really cool people. my pictures came out great from that weekend. the next weekend i went to visit Tiff @ Stonehill. Her friends were great - they were all so nice and fun to be around. I learned to how to play kings & fuck the dealer while i was sober, meaning i actually remember how to play both now. I was hitting on just about every boy in sight. Apparently I was saying things like "heeey boys. I'm amanda and i go to emerson. and you'rrrrre cute!". It was a good time, although i think i was a walking AA advertisement that night, haha.
Next week I choose my classes, so I'm sure I'll have an update pretty quickly. im working tonight - the Majestic is doing Sideways Stories from Wayside School (anybody remember those books from middle school???) - i really hope im coat check & can just do work. that's it for now - peace out kiddies.