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Again. Need to go over a little something. My journal. My thoughts. All of them are mine, and personal. I'm going to reevaluate my friends list, and will most likely take out a few people, because things are starting to be taken out of context from these journals. I'm not sure I'll take this step, but lately things have been getting to a point where I need to draw a line and make this journal closed off to friends only [Online friends needn't worry ;)].
Not going to launch into a full description of practice, but let's just say it was worse thatn Thursday. By far. The only good thing that came of it, was that I could talk to two good friends about it, one who I had been talking to all along, and one that I had been apart from for a long while. Although it feels like a ton of things in my life are falling apart, it's nice to know that my friend-life may finally be completely normal now.
I have a lot to think about dance-wise, and even if I'm going through some rough times, I want it to be known that I have absolutely NO intention of quitting. No. I've been on this team for longer than any other member, with the exception of Helen, I was one of the first "pioneers" to start the team, I have put so much effort and tears and pain into this, and there is absolutely NO NO NO way that I would ever throw it away just because of some drama that was getting to me. No way. I'm not that type of person to quit when things were getting a little rough, although if they got to the point of torture, I would have to reconsider. Not there quite yet though, so don't assume I'm quitting please. I just have to re-evaluate my position on things.
Ah well. I don't want to go on about this any longer, I've bored everyone with my incessant whining about the subject. Heheh. I'll probably ramble a little more about it tomorrow or Saturday. Much love to both Emeline and Anna -- helped me through a lot today, and I'm grateful.
Have a wonderful night.
P.S.>> Oh look! New icons! The one I'm using now isn't default, but I love it! Sydney and Will! And my current default icon matches my layout at UD! Wheeee! Can you tell I love Alias? Heh.
---- EDIT ----
Clair mentioned something in her LJ that really caught my eye. It's hard to be at the bottom of something you love. That's exactly how I've been feeling for the past couple weeks, and it's hard to express. I think Clair put words to my feelings. I know I'm not the best dancer, but I know that my heart is all there, and I can work to achieve my goal. I just didn't start soon enough.
Apparently I have an attitude problem. However, I think it's more of a situation-based attitude problem. I don't know how else to react to something that I care so much about. I actually came to practice yesterday with a smile on my face, and energy to dance, but as soon as I realized that for the sixth consecutive practice, in a row, I was doing nothing for a major chunk of the routine. I think that's enough to get just a little annoyed with, right? Guess not.
Since I'm at school, I'll probably write later...
Not going to launch into a full description of practice, but let's just say it was worse thatn Thursday. By far. The only good thing that came of it, was that I could talk to two good friends about it, one who I had been talking to all along, and one that I had been apart from for a long while. Although it feels like a ton of things in my life are falling apart, it's nice to know that my friend-life may finally be completely normal now.
I have a lot to think about dance-wise, and even if I'm going through some rough times, I want it to be known that I have absolutely NO intention of quitting. No. I've been on this team for longer than any other member, with the exception of Helen, I was one of the first "pioneers" to start the team, I have put so much effort and tears and pain into this, and there is absolutely NO NO NO way that I would ever throw it away just because of some drama that was getting to me. No way. I'm not that type of person to quit when things were getting a little rough, although if they got to the point of torture, I would have to reconsider. Not there quite yet though, so don't assume I'm quitting please. I just have to re-evaluate my position on things.
Ah well. I don't want to go on about this any longer, I've bored everyone with my incessant whining about the subject. Heheh. I'll probably ramble a little more about it tomorrow or Saturday. Much love to both Emeline and Anna -- helped me through a lot today, and I'm grateful.
Have a wonderful night.
P.S.>> Oh look! New icons! The one I'm using now isn't default, but I love it! Sydney and Will! And my current default icon matches my layout at UD! Wheeee! Can you tell I love Alias? Heh.
---- EDIT ----
Clair mentioned something in her LJ that really caught my eye. It's hard to be at the bottom of something you love. That's exactly how I've been feeling for the past couple weeks, and it's hard to express. I think Clair put words to my feelings. I know I'm not the best dancer, but I know that my heart is all there, and I can work to achieve my goal. I just didn't start soon enough.
Apparently I have an attitude problem. However, I think it's more of a situation-based attitude problem. I don't know how else to react to something that I care so much about. I actually came to practice yesterday with a smile on my face, and energy to dance, but as soon as I realized that for the sixth consecutive practice, in a row, I was doing nothing for a major chunk of the routine. I think that's enough to get just a little annoyed with, right? Guess not.
Since I'm at school, I'll probably write later...