grhhhghgh
I dunno what it is but I'm super frustrated with my art lately.
Mostly....because I haven't had an art class in too long so I haven't had anyone telling me "HEY! MAKE THIS! YOU HAVE ONE DAY TO COMPLETE IT!"
thus giving me reason to need to finish something or at least try my best at something.
I can't finish anything. It's not just ADD ...I seriously...have nothing I want to try to finish.
My own characters, fanart....nothing really...gives me a reason to finish. Which then turns into "Why even bother drawing?"
which then turns into me looking at old art going "What is all this shit and trash?"
And that's the point I'm at right now and I'm not sure how to jump out of it. Every creative person has slumps but this is ridiculous. I WANT to do something but....it just comes out as crap so ...
hhhaaaaaaghghghghg Its worse going to deviantart and seeing these beautiful cg paintings or just DRAWINGS other people do that just seem so much better. Styles are different and I know this but there's an obvious LEVEL of ability there that makes me jealous and disappointed in myself.
I'm not aiming to be the next Michelangelo of Digital Painting...I just want to.....not. Suck.
LoL Or at least get to a level that I would feel my art would be WORTH selling. That's another aspect of this slump that is bothering me. Nothing I have I can sell. I'm not just talking about getting a table at a con, I mean like....if I wanted to ever pitch an idea I have nothing that is remotely sellable. I wouldn't buy a comic by me or an art book, or even a G/D sketchbook.
And the "Oh but you CAN draw, I can't draw at all!" doesn't really help, because if you can't draw I'm sure there's another talent you have that is STILL at a level better than how I feel about my art.
Self. Loathing. Heh...I came home thinking "I'M GONNA DRAW AN AWESOME HALLOWEEN PICTURE", grabbed the sketchbook, opened it up and didn't even pick up the pencil. I hit the 'Why bother' before I even draw a LINE.
Screw this, its hella late and I wanna read Sherlock Holmes before sleeping. Giving up. Right now.
Mostly....because I haven't had an art class in too long so I haven't had anyone telling me "HEY! MAKE THIS! YOU HAVE ONE DAY TO COMPLETE IT!"
thus giving me reason to need to finish something or at least try my best at something.
I can't finish anything. It's not just ADD ...I seriously...have nothing I want to try to finish.
My own characters, fanart....nothing really...gives me a reason to finish. Which then turns into "Why even bother drawing?"
which then turns into me looking at old art going "What is all this shit and trash?"
And that's the point I'm at right now and I'm not sure how to jump out of it. Every creative person has slumps but this is ridiculous. I WANT to do something but....it just comes out as crap so ...
hhhaaaaaaghghghghg Its worse going to deviantart and seeing these beautiful cg paintings or just DRAWINGS other people do that just seem so much better. Styles are different and I know this but there's an obvious LEVEL of ability there that makes me jealous and disappointed in myself.
I'm not aiming to be the next Michelangelo of Digital Painting...I just want to.....not. Suck.
LoL Or at least get to a level that I would feel my art would be WORTH selling. That's another aspect of this slump that is bothering me. Nothing I have I can sell. I'm not just talking about getting a table at a con, I mean like....if I wanted to ever pitch an idea I have nothing that is remotely sellable. I wouldn't buy a comic by me or an art book, or even a G/D sketchbook.
And the "Oh but you CAN draw, I can't draw at all!" doesn't really help, because if you can't draw I'm sure there's another talent you have that is STILL at a level better than how I feel about my art.
Self. Loathing. Heh...I came home thinking "I'M GONNA DRAW AN AWESOME HALLOWEEN PICTURE", grabbed the sketchbook, opened it up and didn't even pick up the pencil. I hit the 'Why bother' before I even draw a LINE.
Screw this, its hella late and I wanna read Sherlock Holmes before sleeping. Giving up. Right now.