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I don't know how to describe it anymore i'm not numb but i am i'm not happy but i am and i'm not depressed but i am...i'm doing stuff i shouldn't be doing, stuff i told myself i would never do again but when i do it i don't feel it i don't feel it after i do either...it's scarey i guess...my friend is worried about me an yelled at me for doing it but i keep telling her i've done worse and its not that bad or deep and i'm fine...i'll be fine...and i will...at least i hope i will...no one understands what i'm going through right now, hell i don't even know what i'm going through...i don't care about anything anymore...not even me...my dad grounded me on saturday and i didn't care and then within the half hour he ungrounded me and i still didn't care...i cried today cuz of some stuff but then i was laughing the next minute...i don't get it...it's deep but not too deep like it's been before...i can't explain anything...i'm no longer me