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i love him so much
hes the only person that makes me happy.
today was my cousins birthday party.
i apologised to her for not coming but i feel i had plenty of reason not to.
this is my snobby side of my family from west bloomfield...
they met matt a few times before, so today i asked if he could come to celebrate my cousins bday with us
my uncle wasnt mean at all when he said no..
but it wasnt even thefact that i was told no ic ouldnt bring him that upset me
it was the fact that he said " i woudlnt want you to make a habit out of bringing him around" that pissed me off
the point of me fucking bringing him around is to show that im serious bout him and think that he might be the man i marry one day.
thats the god damned point of me bringing him around...
its not like its someone i met a week ago..
but w/e
hes the ONLY person that makes me feel good bout msyelf... yes
im fat
but hes the only person that i feel looks at me and doesnt see me as fat..
i feel like he looks at me and just loves me
he doesnt care what i look like
he cares about ME.... not what i look like
hes the most amazing person ive ever met
and its very hard for me to admit this
but some people just need away from their family
like..... just ... to not associate with them
and i feel like thats how i need to be
i dont want to
i lvoe my family
i love seeing them al thetime and hanging out
their views are so outdated and dumb idk waht to do ne more
but ne way
i finally got a job... im so happy!
things are FINALLY looking up for me
im so happy for this job i cant even describe...
im estatic bout it!
aksfaisdufpaosdif!
but yeah.. what a weekend...
very eventful and emotional.
hopefully i dont have ne more break downs....
hes the only person that makes me happy.
today was my cousins birthday party.
i apologised to her for not coming but i feel i had plenty of reason not to.
this is my snobby side of my family from west bloomfield...
they met matt a few times before, so today i asked if he could come to celebrate my cousins bday with us
my uncle wasnt mean at all when he said no..
but it wasnt even thefact that i was told no ic ouldnt bring him that upset me
it was the fact that he said " i woudlnt want you to make a habit out of bringing him around" that pissed me off
the point of me fucking bringing him around is to show that im serious bout him and think that he might be the man i marry one day.
thats the god damned point of me bringing him around...
its not like its someone i met a week ago..
but w/e
hes the ONLY person that makes me feel good bout msyelf... yes
im fat
but hes the only person that i feel looks at me and doesnt see me as fat..
i feel like he looks at me and just loves me
he doesnt care what i look like
he cares about ME.... not what i look like
hes the most amazing person ive ever met
and its very hard for me to admit this
but some people just need away from their family
like..... just ... to not associate with them
and i feel like thats how i need to be
i dont want to
i lvoe my family
i love seeing them al thetime and hanging out
their views are so outdated and dumb idk waht to do ne more
but ne way
i finally got a job... im so happy!
things are FINALLY looking up for me
im so happy for this job i cant even describe...
im estatic bout it!
aksfaisdufpaosdif!
but yeah.. what a weekend...
very eventful and emotional.
hopefully i dont have ne more break downs....