and i'm back.
in the beginning of summer '04, i pledged that i was going to write in my journal from that point on and obviously that ended almost right away. so for summer '05 i'm going to try again and hopefully it will work out better then planned. tonight i am officially a senior. me, a senior? that's one of the best jokes i've ever heard. high school has flown by so fast so far. it's insane. i can still remember being a freshman. actually thats a lie. freshman year i hardly remember. but sophomore year sticks out so much to me. i remember almost everything about it. the lunch tables, the play, prom.. seriously so many things happened sophomore year. and things that weren't necessarily all good. but i don't even care about them anymore. but this past year, junior year was wicked rough for me. and i know how people hate complainers. but suck it up or scroll down for a second. losing my grandfather was possibly the hardest things i have ever done. i have never cried over anyone that much. i feel so empty inside knowing he isn't around or that i won't ever again be confused when he speaks to me in italian. and then i feel like some friendships grew stronger while others crumbled in our hands, even though some of the girls wouldn't want to admit it. Lately, i'm just feeling weird around the girls, like almost as if we're all only thinking about ourselves and what we want and there's immaturity. oh well, there's only so much we can do. girls, i'm not trying to distance myself from you at all. i still love you to death, so i hope you don't take things personally when i'm not with you all the time. love you forever and i hope that we can stregnthen our friendship over the summer.
Today was supposed to be the offical first day of summer for me because i was all done with finals and i didn't have to take any make- ups. i was free, that is until jmart made us come in at 7:30 in the AM to reherse SSB for graduation tonight. Well that didn't work out like he planned because we didn't sing until 8:15 (a precious 45 minutes i so could have been asleep for.) then we had to go upstairs and be split among the 8 senior buses and some of us getting bitched at cuz "you're not supposed to be there." it isn't our fault. we honestly really don't want to be there either so don't bite our heads off because we sing at YOUR graduation. please people. lets be mature. then we were there for a good 5.5 hours while the seniors practiced the precessional a good 5 times before we sang it one time for our mic check and then were done for the day. but the school wouldnt let us leave, so we had to sit through the next part of the practice rehersal and try our hardest not to commit suicide. it was pretty rough and i got home at like 1 pm. the rehersal was just so long, that and the face that our bus freakin over heated on the way home and bus driver drove 15 mph the whole way home no matter where we were. i'm almost surprised we didn't get killed. Dad and Lauren had already left for Italy so i didn't get to say bye, oh well. i hope they bring me back good things! and that sounds totally materialistic but who cares. i came home and showered and blow dried and straightened my beast so i could look good for the graduation. It took forever and i quickly ironed my outfit and got into the car to go get thibby while someone texted me to tell me that i looked hot this morning. seriously, i have never laughed so hard. i rolled out of bed at like 7:20, braided my hair in pigtails, put on clothes and a hat and walked out the door. anyways, spectrum was lucky this time and got an air conditioned mini bus to ride to the Bushnell in. It was pretty fun sharing the back row with brendan and clyburn. ill miss those two, but i still have brendan next year. woot woot. we warmed up in front of the senior class then went on our way and had to stand like statues while the seniors filled on, sang SSB and then ran up 2 flights of stairs with brendan to get to our seats. too bad we sat in the wrong ones. the speeches were pretty good and the diploma passing out was a bitch but it was also really sad at the same time. at the end, we waited outside the theater and took pictures with anyone that would get close to me (colleen, andrew, kate, joe, min, phu) love you guys. and got some sweaty hugs from really attractive boys. oh price chopper, how i enjoy thee. then i went home with meghan, brendan, and kevin and we met up with the rest of the daughretys and houlihan family at outback for a late dinner. i really enjoyed all our issues with steak and connor being a camel. pretty cool. then i drove maggie to heath's house and stayed and chatted with julie before heath, jer, matt, and kev came back. it turned out being awkward for me under the circumstances and i left. and i got home and cried cuz my friendships have been sucking lately. i explained the whole thing to jerry who made me feel so special because i know how much our friendships mean to each other and its pretty awesome. and i finally got up enough courage to talk to kevin about everything i feel alot better about it cuz he finally was straight up about things to me. thank god that is over with, well the awkwardness cuz our friendship is on the mends and i think things will be okay. andddd tori just invited me to the beach tomorrow so today has over all been pretty awesome! hot boys, rekindling friendships, beaching.. nice combo! thanks for putting up with the beast of an entry. aren't you glad i'm back?!?!
<3<3<3<3 SENIOR CLASS OF 2005 <3<3<3<3 "i do believe i have been changed for the better. because i knew you i have been changed for good."
Today was supposed to be the offical first day of summer for me because i was all done with finals and i didn't have to take any make- ups. i was free, that is until jmart made us come in at 7:30 in the AM to reherse SSB for graduation tonight. Well that didn't work out like he planned because we didn't sing until 8:15 (a precious 45 minutes i so could have been asleep for.) then we had to go upstairs and be split among the 8 senior buses and some of us getting bitched at cuz "you're not supposed to be there." it isn't our fault. we honestly really don't want to be there either so don't bite our heads off because we sing at YOUR graduation. please people. lets be mature. then we were there for a good 5.5 hours while the seniors practiced the precessional a good 5 times before we sang it one time for our mic check and then were done for the day. but the school wouldnt let us leave, so we had to sit through the next part of the practice rehersal and try our hardest not to commit suicide. it was pretty rough and i got home at like 1 pm. the rehersal was just so long, that and the face that our bus freakin over heated on the way home and bus driver drove 15 mph the whole way home no matter where we were. i'm almost surprised we didn't get killed. Dad and Lauren had already left for Italy so i didn't get to say bye, oh well. i hope they bring me back good things! and that sounds totally materialistic but who cares. i came home and showered and blow dried and straightened my beast so i could look good for the graduation. It took forever and i quickly ironed my outfit and got into the car to go get thibby while someone texted me to tell me that i looked hot this morning. seriously, i have never laughed so hard. i rolled out of bed at like 7:20, braided my hair in pigtails, put on clothes and a hat and walked out the door. anyways, spectrum was lucky this time and got an air conditioned mini bus to ride to the Bushnell in. It was pretty fun sharing the back row with brendan and clyburn. ill miss those two, but i still have brendan next year. woot woot. we warmed up in front of the senior class then went on our way and had to stand like statues while the seniors filled on, sang SSB and then ran up 2 flights of stairs with brendan to get to our seats. too bad we sat in the wrong ones. the speeches were pretty good and the diploma passing out was a bitch but it was also really sad at the same time. at the end, we waited outside the theater and took pictures with anyone that would get close to me (colleen, andrew, kate, joe, min, phu) love you guys. and got some sweaty hugs from really attractive boys. oh price chopper, how i enjoy thee. then i went home with meghan, brendan, and kevin and we met up with the rest of the daughretys and houlihan family at outback for a late dinner. i really enjoyed all our issues with steak and connor being a camel. pretty cool. then i drove maggie to heath's house and stayed and chatted with julie before heath, jer, matt, and kev came back. it turned out being awkward for me under the circumstances and i left. and i got home and cried cuz my friendships have been sucking lately. i explained the whole thing to jerry who made me feel so special because i know how much our friendships mean to each other and its pretty awesome. and i finally got up enough courage to talk to kevin about everything i feel alot better about it cuz he finally was straight up about things to me. thank god that is over with, well the awkwardness cuz our friendship is on the mends and i think things will be okay. andddd tori just invited me to the beach tomorrow so today has over all been pretty awesome! hot boys, rekindling friendships, beaching.. nice combo! thanks for putting up with the beast of an entry. aren't you glad i'm back?!?!
<3<3<3<3 SENIOR CLASS OF 2005 <3<3<3<3 "i do believe i have been changed for the better. because i knew you i have been changed for good."