dance dance
Revolution.
I started playing again yesterday, and sweated a lot. I can't explain how happy it made me. I haven't played DDR since sometime last year, when I only played for like two nights in a row and then quit again. Before that, the last time I played was when I was in ninth grade. (I'm in eleventh grade now.) At that time, I had just broken up with my the person I had been dating for two years, and I was so upset that cold November. I turned to food for my comfort, and gained about ten pounds which was so not cool. After that Christmas, a month later, I began trying so hard to get over the pain, without having to rely on anyone else.
I also realized, that I weighed absolutely too much. The day after Christmas, the first of January, I cut everything I ate in half and had no snacks. For comfort instead, I played this game as much as I could and took to walking a lot as a way to cope. Needless to say, I went from 180 lbs to 148. So far, I still consider it to be my greatest accomplishment of my lifetime. Ha. Over summer when I was always stressed with work and trying to find time for everything else, I obviously gained some weight. With the breakup between me and Trey and everything that still follows, I've been gaining and losing and so on.
It's been pretty wavy!
Needless to say, I miss my "Live Active" lifestyle that I got really lazy about, and with the help and support of friends and family I'm going to try and settle this thing right here and now.
And of course... with the help of a game that pretty much changed my life when I was a kid!
I remember when we had it here in the Vicksburg Mall, all I would do every Friday and Saturday was go up there with $20.00 and only use a dollar on a drink. The rest went towards that machine, and making friends with the other nerds that also played. :)
Aside from this... my life has been pretty crazy.
Realizing you aren't good enough anymore for your boyfriend of a little over a year is pretty shocking.
At least, I'm pretty positive that's how it goes.
That is what it feels like...
It makes me sick to my stomach... but what can I do?
Wait.
That word tires itself easily.
For something I have no hope in even happening.
But I want my heart back from you.
Being just friends with you is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
Especially now.
Everyone seems to be going through relationship problems...
Some good problems, some bad problems. What is wrong with this year?
A lot, it looks like. Homecoming is coming up soon, and I'm suddenly wishy-washy on whether or not I even want to go. I guess it just depends on what happens between today and then.
Nothing I can do about it.
I just know for sure, I won't be ready for a real relationship for a good, long while...
take your memories away from me
My emotions are so up and down right now, and I'm sorry for that. To Everyone.
I have the cutest fur-ball kitty curled up warm into my side.
I want these simple things to keep me happy.
:)
I started playing again yesterday, and sweated a lot. I can't explain how happy it made me. I haven't played DDR since sometime last year, when I only played for like two nights in a row and then quit again. Before that, the last time I played was when I was in ninth grade. (I'm in eleventh grade now.) At that time, I had just broken up with my the person I had been dating for two years, and I was so upset that cold November. I turned to food for my comfort, and gained about ten pounds which was so not cool. After that Christmas, a month later, I began trying so hard to get over the pain, without having to rely on anyone else.
I also realized, that I weighed absolutely too much. The day after Christmas, the first of January, I cut everything I ate in half and had no snacks. For comfort instead, I played this game as much as I could and took to walking a lot as a way to cope. Needless to say, I went from 180 lbs to 148. So far, I still consider it to be my greatest accomplishment of my lifetime. Ha. Over summer when I was always stressed with work and trying to find time for everything else, I obviously gained some weight. With the breakup between me and Trey and everything that still follows, I've been gaining and losing and so on.
It's been pretty wavy!
Needless to say, I miss my "Live Active" lifestyle that I got really lazy about, and with the help and support of friends and family I'm going to try and settle this thing right here and now.
And of course... with the help of a game that pretty much changed my life when I was a kid!
I remember when we had it here in the Vicksburg Mall, all I would do every Friday and Saturday was go up there with $20.00 and only use a dollar on a drink. The rest went towards that machine, and making friends with the other nerds that also played. :)
Aside from this... my life has been pretty crazy.
Realizing you aren't good enough anymore for your boyfriend of a little over a year is pretty shocking.
At least, I'm pretty positive that's how it goes.
That is what it feels like...
It makes me sick to my stomach... but what can I do?
Wait.
That word tires itself easily.
For something I have no hope in even happening.
But I want my heart back from you.
Being just friends with you is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
Especially now.
Everyone seems to be going through relationship problems...
Some good problems, some bad problems. What is wrong with this year?
A lot, it looks like. Homecoming is coming up soon, and I'm suddenly wishy-washy on whether or not I even want to go. I guess it just depends on what happens between today and then.
Nothing I can do about it.
I just know for sure, I won't be ready for a real relationship for a good, long while...
take your memories away from me
My emotions are so up and down right now, and I'm sorry for that. To Everyone.
I have the cutest fur-ball kitty curled up warm into my side.
I want these simple things to keep me happy.
:)