updation
I'm in Tempe now. its not the greatest place, but at least its not L.A. so that thought helps. I do enjoy Scottsdale though, its like the pretty parts of L.A. without mean people and the amazing shopping. I can't handle the heat up here either. I have been trying to start a running regimen every morning but it never gets below 85 degrees, how do I run in that?? I'll figure it out somehow cuz even though I only gained 2 lbs, that is how it starts...I don't need to escalate the weight gain.
I don't enjoy living with Marina. She tells me what to do and ditches me all the time and just acts like a spoiled brat. lame. so my plans are that I'm getting my own 1 bedroom once my car is paid off or maybe just one other roommate in a 2 bedroom. I wish people would come visit. I don't have any friends, other than ashleys (L.A. ashley) friend Tianna. she lives in Glendale and always invites me to hang whenever I have a chance but I just haven't had a chance to hang out with her cuz glendale is 30 miles away from Tempe. Other than that, I'm all alone and I'm used to doing everything myself, but eventually you want people around.
the job situation still sucks. I finally got another job and its pays well, but the hours aren't enough so I'm still on the hunt for more jobs. meanwhile AE is shitty pay and even shittier hours but I need the money so I'm sticking around until I find a 2nd job. My mom has pretty much been supporting me cuz things are so shitty and I feel horrible taking her money and she's taking me grocery shopping today..I feel like a loser. I want to be able to support myself.
I'm finally beginning to gain strength over the whole larry saga (thats what krystal calls it). I still find him crossing my mind every damn day (grrr get out!), but I'm getting angrier and angrier for what he did to me, and I know that he's feeling ashamed even though I have no clue in hell what he's up to, but its his pattern that I know very well, that draws me to this conclusion and the pattern is heading to the same cycle :). I never deleted him from my email address book and he was on the list of friends in my address book on facebook (he must have recently joined, I had no idea he had a facebook). his default pic made me wonder. I have no idea what to wonder, but it definitely says that I'm on his mind...so he can bring it on bitch! he won't contact me, but you all can say I told you so if he does since everyone has said he will. I have a few friends lined up to fight him away if I get too chicken to tell him to fuck off.
oh and ashley, the babysitter movie we saw equals bizzare! lol
I don't enjoy living with Marina. She tells me what to do and ditches me all the time and just acts like a spoiled brat. lame. so my plans are that I'm getting my own 1 bedroom once my car is paid off or maybe just one other roommate in a 2 bedroom. I wish people would come visit. I don't have any friends, other than ashleys (L.A. ashley) friend Tianna. she lives in Glendale and always invites me to hang whenever I have a chance but I just haven't had a chance to hang out with her cuz glendale is 30 miles away from Tempe. Other than that, I'm all alone and I'm used to doing everything myself, but eventually you want people around.
the job situation still sucks. I finally got another job and its pays well, but the hours aren't enough so I'm still on the hunt for more jobs. meanwhile AE is shitty pay and even shittier hours but I need the money so I'm sticking around until I find a 2nd job. My mom has pretty much been supporting me cuz things are so shitty and I feel horrible taking her money and she's taking me grocery shopping today..I feel like a loser. I want to be able to support myself.
I'm finally beginning to gain strength over the whole larry saga (thats what krystal calls it). I still find him crossing my mind every damn day (grrr get out!), but I'm getting angrier and angrier for what he did to me, and I know that he's feeling ashamed even though I have no clue in hell what he's up to, but its his pattern that I know very well, that draws me to this conclusion and the pattern is heading to the same cycle :). I never deleted him from my email address book and he was on the list of friends in my address book on facebook (he must have recently joined, I had no idea he had a facebook). his default pic made me wonder. I have no idea what to wonder, but it definitely says that I'm on his mind...so he can bring it on bitch! he won't contact me, but you all can say I told you so if he does since everyone has said he will. I have a few friends lined up to fight him away if I get too chicken to tell him to fuck off.
oh and ashley, the babysitter movie we saw equals bizzare! lol