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Oh hello.Life is okay.I still feel empty.I don't know whats wrong and what more I want in life.I don't like who I am.I don't like her.I don't like her anymore.I have 2 get braces soon.Then I'll hate my smile even more.I am the most ridiculousy jealous person in the world.Its insane.I never was jealous before. I mean besides typical like"oh that girls prettier than me", "Oh I wanted that part",kind of jealousy. With him I am jealous all the time.And I just keep finding out more and more girls he's liked.Beautiful girls. And more people he's kissed.And I know he's with me now,but still I hate it.And I see these girls all the time.And so does he.So he can wish and oogle over them.It makes me hate myself even more.BLEH jealousy.Luckily I love him so much.I really do.I REALLY REALLY do.I just love him more everyday.Its insane. I mean like I know I've had boyfriends before,but nothing like this.Its so simple and real,and I'm just awed.I never knew I had the capacity to love someone so much.Sometimes its fricking terrifying loving someone so much.But I love loving him.My best friends are both hurting,I want to make it better but I dont know how.Im in love with Kate Perry.I want voice lessons.Last night was one of the hottest things Ive ever experienced.My family drives me crazy,but i love um.I miss Micki.
I'm done.Thanks for reading.
I'm done.Thanks for reading.