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Well friends, this has been one lonely week for the catho. And with no particular reason for this sudden loneliness and sadness, it has also been a frustrating week. I'm not entirely sure what God is showing me through this, but I'm still waiting for the lesson to come. In the meantime, I've realized that I do need to be more active in pursuing a social life. I know that sounds dumb, but really. How many times have you wondered, where has catherine gone? she never calls, she never writes, she's never online. Yep, that's me, the lazy friend. I think sometimes I appear "more fine" than I really am. The truth is, I like to be asked how I'm doing, don't we all? BUT, if I never let on that there's reason to ask, then who's going to magically know? Nobody! It's my responsibility to be a friend too. I think part of my problem is that I can retreat into my work far too easily. If there's nothing else to do, I can always grade papers. I don't really try anymore socially, and that's a big part of my problem. It also is hard in that there are not too many people my age around this dumb town. The people I work with are all older, and the people in my church group are mainly older, or at least not in the same stage of life as me. I know that this problem will soon be solved b/c I will be living in Dayton with my friends! and this will be great! I guess what sort of scares me is feeling like I've caught a glimpse of adult life, and I didn't like it too much, at least not the social aspect. But, things don't have to go the way they have been going... Life really is what you make of it; it is a gift, from a very good God. Things do come in life that cause hurt, and I'm seeing that the memories of those times do not quickly fade away, but God is my healer; he gives joy to life...and I think it is very good.