Slow...
I also forgot to say, I got a letter this morning.
I have an appointment at 9am on Monday morning in the Spinal Clinic at the hospital.
My head is all over the place. I feel like a zombi. I'm in shock, I am so, so sad. And I am scared for Monday.
Life is... so ludicrous. I think I got so confused today about what to feel that I have just shut down.
I lay on the beach from 1-5 am. I may spend the night there tonight and sleep under the stars. This is too much for me to deal with. Far, far too much.
I could say everything I am thinking, everything I start to feel before the walls come up. But for now I will be quiet. I will get through. I am safe in the sense that I could never, ever, do this to the people I love.
what do I do ?
I feel so calm. So quiet. So slow.
I have an appointment at 9am on Monday morning in the Spinal Clinic at the hospital.
My head is all over the place. I feel like a zombi. I'm in shock, I am so, so sad. And I am scared for Monday.
Life is... so ludicrous. I think I got so confused today about what to feel that I have just shut down.
I lay on the beach from 1-5 am. I may spend the night there tonight and sleep under the stars. This is too much for me to deal with. Far, far too much.
I could say everything I am thinking, everything I start to feel before the walls come up. But for now I will be quiet. I will get through. I am safe in the sense that I could never, ever, do this to the people I love.
what do I do ?
I feel so calm. So quiet. So slow.