not so the same without you...
this school year is sooo weird. everything is so different. almost as though something is missing. nothing is the same. even the things you expect to be the same are different. i cant help but wonder how this year will end. could it be as happy as the last? i doubt it. it was all so perfect last year. the classes, the people, the experiences. it was all so great. this year seems to be letting me down from the high ive been on. why is that so? changing weather? i wish. if i could do anything differently, i would. too bad there is no way to go back to the good ol' times. where i cried because it was just too funny, or i laughed because it was too heart breaking. now everything seems so fucked up. so out of place. feeling as though i dont belong anywhere or with anyone. im not good enough, i should be better. if only it were possible. if i could one day scoop out those memories which allow me to feel again. the world is so different as a lifeless place. in black and white. so much darker where i thought it was brighter. if only these questions could be answered, maybe all could be healed.