Candy came from out on the Island...In the backroom she was everybody's darlin'....
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last FRIDAY
had to work a party, which ment my sister would be waitressing with me. as it started to die down i met KIERAN :-) he snuck me 2 shots of yeger and him n kim snuck me a sex on the beach MmMm good. i sorta stopped working for long ass periods of time to talk to kieran and we just chilled. he aske dme what i was doing later and i told him i had to drive my sister home. he ended up giving my sister 40 dollars, 20 for a taxi and 20 to take the taxi. we waited to make sure my sister got in safe n stuff then we went driving for a bit. we ended up at his place around 12. one thing led to another and on APRIL FOOLS (technically the morngin after) i was no longer a virgin. 3 hours and some hickies later, his friend called who hasnt seen him in awhile and wanted to hang out. by the way kieran is way irish, his last names murphy, and his parents used to own the place i work now. hes also in the army. anyhoo i didnt wanna chill and meet all of his friends and it was getting late so i dropped him at a bar down the road around 3:30 and that was that. i took the long way home that night. and smoked the fattest joint ive ever smoked in my life, ever. not the whole thing though cuz it was way big, hehe.
SATURDAY
woke up with hickies on ym neck, great especially since today was the day we painted the hsoue since were getting in new flooring soon. It was me, becca, mom, tony, louis, matt, nate and sid unfortunatley showed up later. sid was cool until he pushed my buttons, but its ok i let him ahve it. my mo was being cool and letting us smoke b/c we all do and we had massive hours of work to do. so sid is bitching on hwo he wants heinikan. my mo aske dme if she should run out n get him a 6 pack, meanwhile it was fudging pouring rain outside. i todl her not to, and he wouldnt stop. so i ewnt up to him and saidwho do u thikn u are. u didnt have to help but u are, you shoudl be thankful enough my moms letting u and all of us smoke, who the fuck are YOU that my mom shoudl run out and get u a drink then i told him to get over himself. bitchass. and i calle dhim a selfish fuck, hehe. no one takes advantage of my momma, wut wut raise the roof.
SUNDAY
hmm i dont remmeber sunday b/c i didnt write it down unliek the other days, o well
MONDAY
i hate drama, but it hit me big and hard today. kieran was sopposed to show up and visit me at work but then his bro sean and tina (seans gf) came without him, so i was freaking out thikning he forgot and wasnt comming. the drama starts. he came later so drama ended. before he came poeple saw my neck and apparently his was way bag so tina came up to me and said her new nickname for me was hoover, she never calle dme it again but it was just alil embrassing to say the least. this is were i turned into a nutcase. a girl showed up with ym table of regulars and was drunk. it turne dout my regulars went to college with kieran before he joined the army (he partied too hard=smoking n drinking=thus the army) and the drunk girl who knew kieran was gonna be there that night through a mutual friend turne dout to be his ex girlfriend of almsot 2 years. the mutual friend came over who si amd chill. so me her and him were talking and she told him to go over and say hi to everyone and he said later. so we talked for a bit but it got busy so he went over and said hi and ende dup sitting at their table next to her. ok, no big deal. his ex courtney asked for her check wihch was $4, b/c she onyl got 2 beers, anyhoo she gave me a $3 tip, which is a lot for 2 beers,plus she was drunk as hell plus she was his ex who wanted booty so i didnt wanan take it, b/c even if he wasnt involved i would feel liek im taking advatage of a drunk person. so i said it was ok and she wouldnt take the money and ended up leaving it. then i come back and there gone. i was freaking out. were did they go? did he leave with her? no, they just went outside for a ciggarette so i calmed down a bit. until he came over and was talking to me by the bar and alil later she came too. she didnt know about us and was all over him. i didnt wanan be there anymore b/c u cant win with a drunk person, so i told him i was leaving. he told me to stay and said he wanted to chill but i dditn wanan try n compete with her or anything. so i was all upset about her and thikning i wonder what there doing and blah blah so i went to robs b/c thats were my chix was and i needed to vent and wut not. it was fun i chilled there till alil after 12. we smoked and talked and it was actually way fun. yay. he calle dme at 5 in the mornging later saying hwo h was gonna leave a message but i was up and he was way suprised. i dont sleep. we staye dup talking till alil after 7, b/c i had to leave for school at 7:10, so literally right after i got off the phone with him i had maybe 5 min to throw clothes on n run out the door. it was an amazing phone convo and damn long, 2 hours, shit. im def not a phone person liek that.
TUESDAY
me n kieran made plans acouple hours before technically to go see spin city at 2:20. i gave him directions to my house the night before which he was drunk n didnt write them down. he said he would leave his shoue around 1:30 and be here at 1:45. so when 1:30 i got paranoid just b/c i was expecting him to call me needing directions. when it got close to 1:45 i thoguth he stood me up. but then he called me at 1:45 and was outside. i was the happiest bunny. we got ticktes n was early to the movie so we walked for a bit. we went into hot topic n looked around, i twirled once b/ ci lvoe to spin randomly soemtimes, and he grabbed my hand and we danced alil. he spun me and it was way cute. then we left n went to the movie. i had my legs over him and we just cuddled and kissed here and there. we sat in the second to last row n the theatre was empty pretty much n then 3 boys walk in and sit RIGHT BEHIND US. not in the row behind us all over right behind us. so whne we started kissing n got into it we felt weird b/c the boys were watching, lol after the movie we went back to hsi car in the garage n started hooking up. we were getting all hibbidy bibbidy until he grabs me and says dont turn around but theres an old lady walking this way. of course the garage is emty but this lady has her car infront of his. so we threw clothe sn n left immediately cuz we were embarassed. also in hot topic i saw a flogging molly cd and i said i liekd them n how i went to see them and all this n it turns out hes chilled with them before. hes ogtten drunk with them. hes sooooo :-) he dropped me home b/c i had work. i actually had tables. after work i chilled with tinston n hitxchings for a bit, until kieran calle dme and asked me if i wanted to chill. he said if i didnt he would go tothe bar but he wanted to chill, i said he could go drinking but he said no and came n got me. he calls it the country up here b/c he lives dow the prkwy by kate and theres more fields n stuff here, silly. so he picked me up form the country n we drove around for a bit.
WEDNESDAY
didnt go to school. went to visit chix, then to donnas. hickies r so bad. all over ym whole neck, both shoulders, my breasts, inner thigh, tummy, and my sides and arm. yea, he marked me bad, real bad. it looks like a got the shit beat out fo me. he left for albany today, for a week sigh :-( donna is amazing. she pinned my shirt to hide my hickies and she helped me apply make up. toby put a sticker on my moms jeepp which im using that says pornstar, lol and he lectured me on stuff i needed to be llectured on. i knwo he was doing it cuz he loves me. then after we smoked a huge blunt, then he left and later me n donna smoked a huge joint, i win. then i had work. i didnt have one table but idid have leyla there who was subbing in for bartender for jamie. shes the shit. im soo happy were friends. we talked n played basketball. techinically we were shooting it, and then tried kicking it in, im suprised we idnt brake stuff. but she said she wanted to go to the beach one day with her n my friends. shes way cute.
BAD STUFF:
after work i came home and my sister and mom took my dad to the hospital. he had trouble speaking and his hands and feet and stuff were numb. they did a million bazillion tests on him and they said they found speed n his blood. now, my dad naturally has WAY high blood pressure and a tendancy to be terrified of drugs, and his heart could have exploded. so, if and whne i find the person who did this, there fucking good as dead, dead bitches, dead. i dont liek violence, but i also dont liek when some scum bag slips speed into ym dads drinks and alsmot kills him. he doesnt even know who did it. how is he sopposed to buy stuff now without being paranoid. im just so frustrated that someone would do that to hijm. my dad. hes a nice guy, and hes always there and hes m dad and they could ahve taken him from me. fucker nutters, not kidding if i find out who there getting fucking whammed. no one messes with ym daddy and gets away with it.
THURSDAY
i went to ym moms job to get directions to the hospital. alex drama. he put a whole in the door with his foot after he freaked again and quit again, but they want him bakc if he apologizes. grow the fuck up man! ughh. i went to the hospital around 6. my dad was trying to get me to go home around 7 b/c he didnt want me driving in the dark but he had an mri at 9 and i didnt wanna leave him b/c then hed be all by himself. so i stayed till 9:30ish. he looked so ssad. with all thos things he was hooked up to. and the thing that take shis blood pressure was making way scary noises, and i dont liek hospitals.and they had to shave parts of his tummy to put these things on shi tumym for monitors and i felt real bad /c he really didnt want them shaving him and i knew he felt humiliated. he told them hed rather put the things no and it hurt liek abitch whne he takes them off then shave and they had to.
:-( omg seriously though if he woudlnt ahve been okay i dont knwo what id do, thank goodness.
after the hospital i got stef. we went to laurs and chilled with some people. tinston and jon damiano showe dup later. and so did laurs n ems friend ryan and his friend alex (anther one). his friend alex was so fucking rude. honestly, i literally yelled at him at least 5 times for being disrepectful, especially since no one else was, someone had to. i didnt want my friends hsoue being taken advantage of. so here is this kid alex who isnt friends with anyone but ryan and not even friends with emily and lauren and it was there house.now there hsoue is one of those hosues that no one has EVER worn shoes in and the couch has blankets on ti b/c u cant sit on the actual couch, ya know fancy shamancy. he spills beer, knocks over their table and breaks there plant, and more. he also was walking around wiht hsi shoes on, whhc i yelle dat him for, and helped himself to their food. spille dhis cards everywere. i just snapped. i yelle dat him for being disrepectfl and everything. lauren kept saying your the shit, yay, i did somehting right. anfd then the mother f-ing bastard wouldnt stop sitting next to eme and then he makes the BIGGEST mistake he could ahve made. he touched my boob. BIG MISTAKE. your gross, i dont knwo u, and he was drunk, and he was on zanex or xanex, w/e. i flipped. i told him to not touch my fucking boob and never to touch me and i said i dont liek being touched and thne i was like actually i do but not on this very occasion and it was pretty funny now that i look back b/c he was such a sad, lame kid. and im happy i yelled. i get harassed ENOUGH at work by drunken poeple. no fucking way is that shit gonna happen outside of work, so he got what he deserved. all in all it was a sdamn fun night. it was so funny who tinston ended up there. stef ende dp sleeping over. i fell asleep sometime around closer to 5 n woke up at 8 then went abkc to sleep and drove stef hoem at 10.
and i have successfully hid my hickies from my mom. she knows there there im sure,. but she hasnt sene them so yay. same for my dad, double yay.
o and nina calle dme last night. it was the cutest and made me feel a million bazillion orange icepops better later. i miss my monster, and i lvoe you!!!!!!!!!!
ok my mom just called and shes goign to the hospital and she wants me workng for her for acouple hours. i hope i dont talk o alex. i dnot want him asking me ?'s about kieran or anything. plus he went crazy the other day n put a whol in the door and quit even though he apoligized and im just done wht the baby bullshit.
dan this is a lot i wonder if anyone will read this?? well by lovas :-) have good days and be safe and... ...
last FRIDAY
had to work a party, which ment my sister would be waitressing with me. as it started to die down i met KIERAN :-) he snuck me 2 shots of yeger and him n kim snuck me a sex on the beach MmMm good. i sorta stopped working for long ass periods of time to talk to kieran and we just chilled. he aske dme what i was doing later and i told him i had to drive my sister home. he ended up giving my sister 40 dollars, 20 for a taxi and 20 to take the taxi. we waited to make sure my sister got in safe n stuff then we went driving for a bit. we ended up at his place around 12. one thing led to another and on APRIL FOOLS (technically the morngin after) i was no longer a virgin. 3 hours and some hickies later, his friend called who hasnt seen him in awhile and wanted to hang out. by the way kieran is way irish, his last names murphy, and his parents used to own the place i work now. hes also in the army. anyhoo i didnt wanna chill and meet all of his friends and it was getting late so i dropped him at a bar down the road around 3:30 and that was that. i took the long way home that night. and smoked the fattest joint ive ever smoked in my life, ever. not the whole thing though cuz it was way big, hehe.
SATURDAY
woke up with hickies on ym neck, great especially since today was the day we painted the hsoue since were getting in new flooring soon. It was me, becca, mom, tony, louis, matt, nate and sid unfortunatley showed up later. sid was cool until he pushed my buttons, but its ok i let him ahve it. my mo was being cool and letting us smoke b/c we all do and we had massive hours of work to do. so sid is bitching on hwo he wants heinikan. my mo aske dme if she should run out n get him a 6 pack, meanwhile it was fudging pouring rain outside. i todl her not to, and he wouldnt stop. so i ewnt up to him and saidwho do u thikn u are. u didnt have to help but u are, you shoudl be thankful enough my moms letting u and all of us smoke, who the fuck are YOU that my mom shoudl run out and get u a drink then i told him to get over himself. bitchass. and i calle dhim a selfish fuck, hehe. no one takes advantage of my momma, wut wut raise the roof.
SUNDAY
hmm i dont remmeber sunday b/c i didnt write it down unliek the other days, o well
MONDAY
i hate drama, but it hit me big and hard today. kieran was sopposed to show up and visit me at work but then his bro sean and tina (seans gf) came without him, so i was freaking out thikning he forgot and wasnt comming. the drama starts. he came later so drama ended. before he came poeple saw my neck and apparently his was way bag so tina came up to me and said her new nickname for me was hoover, she never calle dme it again but it was just alil embrassing to say the least. this is were i turned into a nutcase. a girl showed up with ym table of regulars and was drunk. it turne dout my regulars went to college with kieran before he joined the army (he partied too hard=smoking n drinking=thus the army) and the drunk girl who knew kieran was gonna be there that night through a mutual friend turne dout to be his ex girlfriend of almsot 2 years. the mutual friend came over who si amd chill. so me her and him were talking and she told him to go over and say hi to everyone and he said later. so we talked for a bit but it got busy so he went over and said hi and ende dup sitting at their table next to her. ok, no big deal. his ex courtney asked for her check wihch was $4, b/c she onyl got 2 beers, anyhoo she gave me a $3 tip, which is a lot for 2 beers,plus she was drunk as hell plus she was his ex who wanted booty so i didnt wanan take it, b/c even if he wasnt involved i would feel liek im taking advatage of a drunk person. so i said it was ok and she wouldnt take the money and ended up leaving it. then i come back and there gone. i was freaking out. were did they go? did he leave with her? no, they just went outside for a ciggarette so i calmed down a bit. until he came over and was talking to me by the bar and alil later she came too. she didnt know about us and was all over him. i didnt wanan be there anymore b/c u cant win with a drunk person, so i told him i was leaving. he told me to stay and said he wanted to chill but i dditn wanan try n compete with her or anything. so i was all upset about her and thikning i wonder what there doing and blah blah so i went to robs b/c thats were my chix was and i needed to vent and wut not. it was fun i chilled there till alil after 12. we smoked and talked and it was actually way fun. yay. he calle dme at 5 in the mornging later saying hwo h was gonna leave a message but i was up and he was way suprised. i dont sleep. we staye dup talking till alil after 7, b/c i had to leave for school at 7:10, so literally right after i got off the phone with him i had maybe 5 min to throw clothes on n run out the door. it was an amazing phone convo and damn long, 2 hours, shit. im def not a phone person liek that.
TUESDAY
me n kieran made plans acouple hours before technically to go see spin city at 2:20. i gave him directions to my house the night before which he was drunk n didnt write them down. he said he would leave his shoue around 1:30 and be here at 1:45. so when 1:30 i got paranoid just b/c i was expecting him to call me needing directions. when it got close to 1:45 i thoguth he stood me up. but then he called me at 1:45 and was outside. i was the happiest bunny. we got ticktes n was early to the movie so we walked for a bit. we went into hot topic n looked around, i twirled once b/ ci lvoe to spin randomly soemtimes, and he grabbed my hand and we danced alil. he spun me and it was way cute. then we left n went to the movie. i had my legs over him and we just cuddled and kissed here and there. we sat in the second to last row n the theatre was empty pretty much n then 3 boys walk in and sit RIGHT BEHIND US. not in the row behind us all over right behind us. so whne we started kissing n got into it we felt weird b/c the boys were watching, lol after the movie we went back to hsi car in the garage n started hooking up. we were getting all hibbidy bibbidy until he grabs me and says dont turn around but theres an old lady walking this way. of course the garage is emty but this lady has her car infront of his. so we threw clothe sn n left immediately cuz we were embarassed. also in hot topic i saw a flogging molly cd and i said i liekd them n how i went to see them and all this n it turns out hes chilled with them before. hes ogtten drunk with them. hes sooooo :-) he dropped me home b/c i had work. i actually had tables. after work i chilled with tinston n hitxchings for a bit, until kieran calle dme and asked me if i wanted to chill. he said if i didnt he would go tothe bar but he wanted to chill, i said he could go drinking but he said no and came n got me. he calls it the country up here b/c he lives dow the prkwy by kate and theres more fields n stuff here, silly. so he picked me up form the country n we drove around for a bit.
WEDNESDAY
didnt go to school. went to visit chix, then to donnas. hickies r so bad. all over ym whole neck, both shoulders, my breasts, inner thigh, tummy, and my sides and arm. yea, he marked me bad, real bad. it looks like a got the shit beat out fo me. he left for albany today, for a week sigh :-( donna is amazing. she pinned my shirt to hide my hickies and she helped me apply make up. toby put a sticker on my moms jeepp which im using that says pornstar, lol and he lectured me on stuff i needed to be llectured on. i knwo he was doing it cuz he loves me. then after we smoked a huge blunt, then he left and later me n donna smoked a huge joint, i win. then i had work. i didnt have one table but idid have leyla there who was subbing in for bartender for jamie. shes the shit. im soo happy were friends. we talked n played basketball. techinically we were shooting it, and then tried kicking it in, im suprised we idnt brake stuff. but she said she wanted to go to the beach one day with her n my friends. shes way cute.
BAD STUFF:
after work i came home and my sister and mom took my dad to the hospital. he had trouble speaking and his hands and feet and stuff were numb. they did a million bazillion tests on him and they said they found speed n his blood. now, my dad naturally has WAY high blood pressure and a tendancy to be terrified of drugs, and his heart could have exploded. so, if and whne i find the person who did this, there fucking good as dead, dead bitches, dead. i dont liek violence, but i also dont liek when some scum bag slips speed into ym dads drinks and alsmot kills him. he doesnt even know who did it. how is he sopposed to buy stuff now without being paranoid. im just so frustrated that someone would do that to hijm. my dad. hes a nice guy, and hes always there and hes m dad and they could ahve taken him from me. fucker nutters, not kidding if i find out who there getting fucking whammed. no one messes with ym daddy and gets away with it.
THURSDAY
i went to ym moms job to get directions to the hospital. alex drama. he put a whole in the door with his foot after he freaked again and quit again, but they want him bakc if he apologizes. grow the fuck up man! ughh. i went to the hospital around 6. my dad was trying to get me to go home around 7 b/c he didnt want me driving in the dark but he had an mri at 9 and i didnt wanna leave him b/c then hed be all by himself. so i stayed till 9:30ish. he looked so ssad. with all thos things he was hooked up to. and the thing that take shis blood pressure was making way scary noises, and i dont liek hospitals.and they had to shave parts of his tummy to put these things on shi tumym for monitors and i felt real bad /c he really didnt want them shaving him and i knew he felt humiliated. he told them hed rather put the things no and it hurt liek abitch whne he takes them off then shave and they had to.
:-( omg seriously though if he woudlnt ahve been okay i dont knwo what id do, thank goodness.
after the hospital i got stef. we went to laurs and chilled with some people. tinston and jon damiano showe dup later. and so did laurs n ems friend ryan and his friend alex (anther one). his friend alex was so fucking rude. honestly, i literally yelled at him at least 5 times for being disrepectful, especially since no one else was, someone had to. i didnt want my friends hsoue being taken advantage of. so here is this kid alex who isnt friends with anyone but ryan and not even friends with emily and lauren and it was there house.now there hsoue is one of those hosues that no one has EVER worn shoes in and the couch has blankets on ti b/c u cant sit on the actual couch, ya know fancy shamancy. he spills beer, knocks over their table and breaks there plant, and more. he also was walking around wiht hsi shoes on, whhc i yelle dat him for, and helped himself to their food. spille dhis cards everywere. i just snapped. i yelle dat him for being disrepectfl and everything. lauren kept saying your the shit, yay, i did somehting right. anfd then the mother f-ing bastard wouldnt stop sitting next to eme and then he makes the BIGGEST mistake he could ahve made. he touched my boob. BIG MISTAKE. your gross, i dont knwo u, and he was drunk, and he was on zanex or xanex, w/e. i flipped. i told him to not touch my fucking boob and never to touch me and i said i dont liek being touched and thne i was like actually i do but not on this very occasion and it was pretty funny now that i look back b/c he was such a sad, lame kid. and im happy i yelled. i get harassed ENOUGH at work by drunken poeple. no fucking way is that shit gonna happen outside of work, so he got what he deserved. all in all it was a sdamn fun night. it was so funny who tinston ended up there. stef ende dp sleeping over. i fell asleep sometime around closer to 5 n woke up at 8 then went abkc to sleep and drove stef hoem at 10.
and i have successfully hid my hickies from my mom. she knows there there im sure,. but she hasnt sene them so yay. same for my dad, double yay.
o and nina calle dme last night. it was the cutest and made me feel a million bazillion orange icepops better later. i miss my monster, and i lvoe you!!!!!!!!!!
ok my mom just called and shes goign to the hospital and she wants me workng for her for acouple hours. i hope i dont talk o alex. i dnot want him asking me ?'s about kieran or anything. plus he went crazy the other day n put a whol in the door and quit even though he apoligized and im just done wht the baby bullshit.
dan this is a lot i wonder if anyone will read this?? well by lovas :-) have good days and be safe and... ...