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its nearing 5 am and I just can't lull myself into a relaxed sleepy state. not good.
I'm feeling incredibly anxious for 1. probably why i can't relax at all right now. either way, I am and its not a good feeling. i'm either going to sink or swim and I refuse to let myself sink but at the same time there is a little nagging thought in the back of my head that is constantly asking what if? I think its cuz i don't have a back up plan.
also, there is just so much i want to say but i can't seem to get it all out into words that properly explain how i feel. I just don't feel comfortable in my own life right now. I know it will be better in the morning. It always is.
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this is seriously the first time i can ever remember not being able to get my feelings out via lj when no other options are available or working. seriously sucking. SERIOUSLY. i think i typed out 3 different partial stories but i had to backspace cuz they still didn't feel right.
I'm feeling incredibly anxious for 1. probably why i can't relax at all right now. either way, I am and its not a good feeling. i'm either going to sink or swim and I refuse to let myself sink but at the same time there is a little nagging thought in the back of my head that is constantly asking what if? I think its cuz i don't have a back up plan.
also, there is just so much i want to say but i can't seem to get it all out into words that properly explain how i feel. I just don't feel comfortable in my own life right now. I know it will be better in the morning. It always is.
asdlkfjasdlfkjasdlkfjalsdkfjasldkfjalsdkfjals;dfkj
this is seriously the first time i can ever remember not being able to get my feelings out via lj when no other options are available or working. seriously sucking. SERIOUSLY. i think i typed out 3 different partial stories but i had to backspace cuz they still didn't feel right.