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well it has been along time since i have written on here and several things have changed. I am working at a new factory, called webosta...and its is great. The people are fantastic, i have friends I talk to every day and they make it great to go to work. My best friends there are nikki, ashley, michelle and this girl i adopted as my lil sister Samorra. These girls are wonderful. I make $10.95 now and its easier than the other one. My apartment is completely done...ok almost..
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Well i am still at webasto but no longer on GMT line which was where my friends were. Now i am on the ford line and have fewer amount of friends. Do not get me wrong i have friends just not as many and not as close. The closest friend i have is Jackie...she is my big little sister there. She watches out for me and makes it better to work there. But alas she is leaving me sometime to move away...not down the street or just to a new job but to another freaking state....yeah another state. So once again i will feel alone. Wondering why i just do not hang out with my old friends...well bc they work 2nd shift at weird hours like 3:30 to any where from 12 to 3:30 am. And i work 10pm to 6 am any where from five to six days a week. Time conflicts it all. I changed my schedule bc it was more convenient for school...which is now being questioned since my license is suspended and i can not drive the 15mins to my school. GAH!!! LIFE.
And im starting to feel ugly all over again...i lost weight and havent gained it back well not all of it back yet but i still feel ugly so once again im going on a diet...starting at 12 today. Why 12 bc i already ate pizza last night around 3:30..i havent been a sleep yet but did exercise. I just do not know what it going on in my head....random insanity is it basically.
I just have to start drinking alot of water and eating fruits again like i did those two weeks i lost all of my weight. I am going back to how i was....eating less and exercising until i drop. I REFUSE To get big again....i want to be like the girls all my friends talk about...those girls they like to look at. Im tired of being just the girl with the big butt...i want to be the pretty girl with a nice smile, the beautiful with a great personality. I am giveing myself a makeover..starting today. I am going to be nicer, quieter, less wild, im going to watch what i say, how i act and who i am up with. People have this idea of me that some let me know about yesterday and i do not like it. I know they didnt mean for it to be a insult but it stung....people have the wrong idea about me and it makes me sad and mad. So im changing even if other people do not want me too. In two weeks I WILL be 20 pds lighter..even if it kills me. WATCH
:::::::Update from that:::::
Well i am still at webasto but no longer on GMT line which was where my friends were. Now i am on the ford line and have fewer amount of friends. Do not get me wrong i have friends just not as many and not as close. The closest friend i have is Jackie...she is my big little sister there. She watches out for me and makes it better to work there. But alas she is leaving me sometime to move away...not down the street or just to a new job but to another freaking state....yeah another state. So once again i will feel alone. Wondering why i just do not hang out with my old friends...well bc they work 2nd shift at weird hours like 3:30 to any where from 12 to 3:30 am. And i work 10pm to 6 am any where from five to six days a week. Time conflicts it all. I changed my schedule bc it was more convenient for school...which is now being questioned since my license is suspended and i can not drive the 15mins to my school. GAH!!! LIFE.
And im starting to feel ugly all over again...i lost weight and havent gained it back well not all of it back yet but i still feel ugly so once again im going on a diet...starting at 12 today. Why 12 bc i already ate pizza last night around 3:30..i havent been a sleep yet but did exercise. I just do not know what it going on in my head....random insanity is it basically.
I just have to start drinking alot of water and eating fruits again like i did those two weeks i lost all of my weight. I am going back to how i was....eating less and exercising until i drop. I REFUSE To get big again....i want to be like the girls all my friends talk about...those girls they like to look at. Im tired of being just the girl with the big butt...i want to be the pretty girl with a nice smile, the beautiful with a great personality. I am giveing myself a makeover..starting today. I am going to be nicer, quieter, less wild, im going to watch what i say, how i act and who i am up with. People have this idea of me that some let me know about yesterday and i do not like it. I know they didnt mean for it to be a insult but it stung....people have the wrong idea about me and it makes me sad and mad. So im changing even if other people do not want me too. In two weeks I WILL be 20 pds lighter..even if it kills me. WATCH