it all came crashing down.....
so we had coming home this past weekend. the dance was freaking awesome. i bought gwen a corsage. what, you dont know? KEELY HAS A GIRLFRIEND! yea so i definately had a great time. only problem is that i havent seen her since. i dont know if shes been in school or not because she goes to the alternative.screwed up credits, i believe. and i cant call her either because her phone doesnt work. i think ill waltz over there tomorrow to see if shes there. if not, im gonna get worried.
ive been really down lately. mostly because kayla o'mara passed away. ive been really upset these past 2 or so days because ive been feeling like im the only one that gives a shit about her family, save grace harcz. i went to the visitation monday night, stood in line for 45 minutes to walk by her casket and bawled like a baby as soon as i saw her parents. got to the casket and i saw that there were signatures all over it in sharpie. there were flowers from cross country teams from all over the place.
the main reason im so upset is the fact that mom refused to let me go to the funeral and kara sided with her reason. she pretty much said that school was too important for me to skip. i feel so alone in this. of all people i thought that kara would understand, and she hasnt even asked me why im so mad at her. i havent talked to her or mom since i had this argument. i go to school and i feel like im surrounded by people who dont even know im there. because kara isnt on my side and doesnt understand whats going on, i feel as though ive lost something. i wander around the halls trying to find out where im going and im lost in a newfound loneliness that i cant escape from.i really hate to say it, but i think i might be getting slightly depressed or something. sure, i still laugh and stuff, but i dont feel happy like i always used to be. maybe i just feel like this because of the recent events, but im sick of it. i want to be happy again, but it wont happen overnight even though people tell me to be happy. its going to take awhile.
ive been really down lately. mostly because kayla o'mara passed away. ive been really upset these past 2 or so days because ive been feeling like im the only one that gives a shit about her family, save grace harcz. i went to the visitation monday night, stood in line for 45 minutes to walk by her casket and bawled like a baby as soon as i saw her parents. got to the casket and i saw that there were signatures all over it in sharpie. there were flowers from cross country teams from all over the place.
the main reason im so upset is the fact that mom refused to let me go to the funeral and kara sided with her reason. she pretty much said that school was too important for me to skip. i feel so alone in this. of all people i thought that kara would understand, and she hasnt even asked me why im so mad at her. i havent talked to her or mom since i had this argument. i go to school and i feel like im surrounded by people who dont even know im there. because kara isnt on my side and doesnt understand whats going on, i feel as though ive lost something. i wander around the halls trying to find out where im going and im lost in a newfound loneliness that i cant escape from.i really hate to say it, but i think i might be getting slightly depressed or something. sure, i still laugh and stuff, but i dont feel happy like i always used to be. maybe i just feel like this because of the recent events, but im sick of it. i want to be happy again, but it wont happen overnight even though people tell me to be happy. its going to take awhile.