People say im a bitch, and I don't know why.
It's been a long time. Too long. And everything is different. God we were dumb. And in 2 years im going to think this is stupid too. It's a cycle, right? I used livejournal, not a lot but i used it. so i gave in. to everything around me. but it was ok, because i wanted it to happen. I don't have a myspace. And if I did, i would feel really self concious. because when push comes to shove, thats just the way it is. you know what i hate? when people say "oh she's just being a teenage girl" because maybe thats my age, but im not just a teenage girl. i am nothing like that. and i hate it when people my age reinforce that stereotype. because i will never be the girl who paints her toenails while she gossips about guys on the phone. Never. and thats just what really really gets to me. people call me a bitch sometimes. im not a bitch. im tough. not tough like i'll beat you up. tough like when everything is collapsing and you just want to cry and hug someone you go and study for a science test.and maybe im not nice. but i have empathy. and thats the once thing you really need to have. and one thing. I don't slam doors. I never go up to my room and slam my door shut. If I ever slam a door you'll know somethings wrong. like im on drugs. and drugs are bad.
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