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So bob and I have been having healthy arguments and I just beat him over the head with a pillow and that seems to relieve some stress because his mom should have been whooping him since his conception. We are both in competition right now because we are starting the so called "diet war". His diet will be based on timing. He wants to snack less at night and become sensitive to what he is actually feeding himself. He calls it the diet of "self-control" which we all know he doesn't have. He'll just have to face that all on his own and it will be fun to see his journey to see what he can "discover" about himself. Meanwhile my diet is an 11 day diet with 3 days of cheating. After the 11 days, I will be able to eat what I want. My focus is actually eating until I am satisfied. Knowing when to stop and not stuff yourself full is a real challenge. Another important part of this diet is to actually eat 4 meals a day instead of 3. I also am going to drink 10 glasses of water a day. This is challenging for me because I retain so much water weight. What I have discovered is that my body holds on to it so instead I need to replenish the water so it can properly flush out my system. Today I drank 4 glasses and working on six. That is equivalent to 5 weggies spring water bottles. Celibacy on certain things have become such a reality...smoking, drinking(at least I can have one glass of wine) and moderation. In my yoga class my teacher asked what are three things you moderate that ar controllable. When I responded I realized that I don't have moderation. Later when I thought about it more I realized that I have been restricting processed foods into my body because its killing us. Other than that though I am in excess. Its hard as a person to change old habits but I am ready for some celibacy. Not only with food but relationships and sex. I know I can get buck wild but I really am trying to settle my spirit. Whatever I have been doing in these past few months to change is working and I love myself much more because of it. Instead of living up to everyone else's expectations I live for myself. This is a great upswing for me right now and I am on fire. That don't kill me it only makes me stronger...