stopping in a snowy wood
this was my morning - pretty awesome for a florida girl
i cannot stop refreshing the google news feed about Atlanta. its getting to be compulsive. maybe that's ridiculous but my brain wont let it lie. my disaster ptsd buttons are pushed. i have come to the conclusion that the buttons are never going to go away. i think that's okay. that's what surviving means - you get left with buttons. the buttons saved you. this time my buttons kept im safe and sound in my house instead of trapped in a car for 9-12-22hours or locked in a school or grocery store overnight. i can walk barefoot in the powder snow in my backyard instead. that is so much better and i have benzos for the rest of it.