Tired and moody
Tired and alone I sit in a cage, contained not by bars but solid unforgiving walls. Kept from the world I sit waiting, longing, drained and unfulfilled. Pining for things to be different, simple and sweet instead of tiring and difficult. All efforts seem shot and pointless but should I stop trying and just give in? Give up all hope that there is in fact light at the end... Then again does anything even matter in the grand scheme of things? I suppose it's a thing one can only discover in time. Yet still I find myself extremely tired. Striving to please everyone I disappoint myself. Too concerned with the thought and actions of others I slowly lose myself in it all. Yet I never seem to learn, instead an endless 360 is spun. Around and around it turns raising hopes and crushing spirits with every succession. Fighting to stay strong I hold up my head and say "it's no biggie", that "tomorrow will come and it will all be okay in the end". Although I know it will I am just so tired of it all. As the day draws to an end I can finally rest and break the never ending chain and for once say that i am no longer tired because in the end I am simply exhausted from being tired.