Give Me Envy, Give Me Malice, Give Me Your Attention!
What a month, what a month. I made a new friend named Anthony. He likes spongebob and sings alot just like me. He also gets a kick out of making random poses and yelling at black people in cars. We live a few streets away from each other which makes him a little more fun. I like this friend. Good person.
Next weekend I'm going to go visit Jesse for his 20th birthday party. I get to see most of Camp Flagler and I'm very excited seeing as how I haven't seen some of them in quite some time. Saturday I'll be going to an Anna Nalick concert. I'll update all about theeat at a later date.
Homecoming! Can't forget to mention that. Everyone has already talked about it, and though I unfortunately can't say that it was magical, I did have a rootin tootin good time. Kaity, Lauren, Mike and I made a pact to not let anything ruin our night, and we succeeded. Mike, Kaity, Nick and I closed the night with wine, shrimp scampi, a jump in the pool and a sleepover. Tres bien.
Yesterday I went to Octoberfest with Kaity, Lauren, Matt and Chase. I'm not exactly the carnival ride type of person but I actually managed to get through a few. Got a ride home with BK which was good, we haven't talked in a while. I was supposed to go to church with Matt this morning to try and be religious, but I guess that got cancelled. After spending the day doing absolutely nothing, Kaity came over and we wanted to go to Pickwicks, but it was closed so we went to Panera's and saw Boom Boom. That was the only time I saw him for the day because our plans were crunched again. 3rd time's a charm. Kait and I did get to make our Bruce Springsteen shirts for Twin Day and basically the rest of our outfits.
Yay.
As for my emotions and thoughts and what not. It's all basically up in the air right now. I can't say that I'm satisfied or anywhere near settling with these feelings right now, but hey, what the hell can I do about them? They're not going to go away if I ask them to, and they don't look like they're going anywhere as much as I tell them that they shouldn't be in me. Those dumb little thougts and emotions that keep nagging and pulling your brain and heart in so many directions you feel like you want to explode. I don't really want to explode though...there'd be too much of me to put back together and I'd probably lose a few peices, and right now, I'm not in the mood to lose anything. People of the world: Smile more often. It really does make you feel a little warmer inside. Recognize the fact that you only live once. "Don't wish. Don't start. Wishing only wounds the heart." I la la love that song...it makes so much sense. Witches must be pretty smart. I sometimes find myself hating LOATHING the way that things change and turn out, but then I remember that as easily they have changed for the worse...they can change for the better. That's good enough for me. What more could I ask for? I guess you could say that I'm in a psychological and emotional limbo-land haha. Not a place I really want to be, but it's better than hell.
Next weekend should clear my mind. When I'm surrounded by those wonderful people I just feel.....wonderful.
♥
Harlequin Girl
Next weekend I'm going to go visit Jesse for his 20th birthday party. I get to see most of Camp Flagler and I'm very excited seeing as how I haven't seen some of them in quite some time. Saturday I'll be going to an Anna Nalick concert. I'll update all about theeat at a later date.
Homecoming! Can't forget to mention that. Everyone has already talked about it, and though I unfortunately can't say that it was magical, I did have a rootin tootin good time. Kaity, Lauren, Mike and I made a pact to not let anything ruin our night, and we succeeded. Mike, Kaity, Nick and I closed the night with wine, shrimp scampi, a jump in the pool and a sleepover. Tres bien.
Yesterday I went to Octoberfest with Kaity, Lauren, Matt and Chase. I'm not exactly the carnival ride type of person but I actually managed to get through a few. Got a ride home with BK which was good, we haven't talked in a while. I was supposed to go to church with Matt this morning to try and be religious, but I guess that got cancelled. After spending the day doing absolutely nothing, Kaity came over and we wanted to go to Pickwicks, but it was closed so we went to Panera's and saw Boom Boom. That was the only time I saw him for the day because our plans were crunched again. 3rd time's a charm. Kait and I did get to make our Bruce Springsteen shirts for Twin Day and basically the rest of our outfits.
Yay.
As for my emotions and thoughts and what not. It's all basically up in the air right now. I can't say that I'm satisfied or anywhere near settling with these feelings right now, but hey, what the hell can I do about them? They're not going to go away if I ask them to, and they don't look like they're going anywhere as much as I tell them that they shouldn't be in me. Those dumb little thougts and emotions that keep nagging and pulling your brain and heart in so many directions you feel like you want to explode. I don't really want to explode though...there'd be too much of me to put back together and I'd probably lose a few peices, and right now, I'm not in the mood to lose anything. People of the world: Smile more often. It really does make you feel a little warmer inside. Recognize the fact that you only live once. "Don't wish. Don't start. Wishing only wounds the heart." I la la love that song...it makes so much sense. Witches must be pretty smart. I sometimes find myself hating LOATHING the way that things change and turn out, but then I remember that as easily they have changed for the worse...they can change for the better. That's good enough for me. What more could I ask for? I guess you could say that I'm in a psychological and emotional limbo-land haha. Not a place I really want to be, but it's better than hell.
Next weekend should clear my mind. When I'm surrounded by those wonderful people I just feel.....wonderful.
♥
Harlequin Girl