And Although I Know That He Is Blind...Still I Say There's A Way For Us.....
......put down the phone.....
Last few days have been great, but still, if not more confusing. Friday I went over to Brandon's. It was very nice :) Ryan came to take him to work but about two minutes after dropping him off, he called saying he didn't have to work. Back to the house. Played for a few more minutes and then Jason, Harrison and Steven came over. That was about it there.....Steven got to meet Lexie....yeah that's it.
Spitfire has been going well, Andrew, the music director, suggested I go all out with all of the songs for the rest of the rehersals. I've been wanting to. We took pictures for the program and I think I'm on the poster. The tagline says "To a town with no future comes a girl with a past"....I love it.
Last night I went to the races and slept over in Rachel's RV. So much fun. All we did was talk, walk around, and eat. Mommy Schimenti made so much food.....so much food.....I feel like I shouldn't be eating for a week now. Rach and I got to talk so much, it was so good. Friends like her seriously keep me sane. They're my backbone. I honestly was so.....I don't even know how to put it into words. I was told things that just made things more confusing....that made me feel bad.....it could be the truth, and I don't want to hide from the truth, I don't want to be naive. But can't stop being optimistic.....I can't.......I know what I want.....I'm not sure how to get it. I'm just gonna chill for a while....that works....just chill......go with the flow. It just.....kind of......hurts.
But aside from that, before I left tonight, Rach and I were laying in the bed in the back of the RV and I remembered that we wanted to go on the ferris wheel, so we got Jane Bradshaw, an amazing woman, and skipped the whole way over. Jane fell flat on her face but popped back up and then she got us on the ferris wheel after they closed.....for free. A miracle worker. Lots of silly pictures. Then we skipped the whole way back, this time with dance breaks and singing.
I'm cold......I want to cuddle with someone really badly.....I want to belt Spitfire......
.....freeze....just like this......
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