Maybe I Have Changed
Three years ago I had no idea how I was going to live my life being away from the friends that I have known since I was in elementary school. And yet, three years later, I am still alive. Making new friends every day, doing things I never thought I would do. I had imagined myself being depressed day after day and never doing much of anything. Maybe playing soccer or doing dance or trying out to be a cheerleader. And now, I don't play soccer, I don't dance, but I am a captain of the cheerleading squad. And what's great, is I'm actually pretty good. I could be better, there's always room for improvement for everyone.
The other day Kristen told me about how her and Nicki had talked about how I've changed this semester. For some reason, I am filled with rage and anger. I lash out at various things and just tweak. But it could also be the fact that lately I've begun to speak up about what I think. Even if it causes confrontation, or is different from other people's ideas. Oh well, I want to become a stronger person. I've also gone to places by myself. And made new friends. Last night I stayed in the back of the bus with people I don't normally talk to when kristen moved to the front. I had fun listening, and occasionally talking to them. And, drinking rum and coke on the way back from Springfield, MA is always a good time.
Hmmm maybe I need to change some of my habits when it comes to school and homework.
The other day Kristen told me about how her and Nicki had talked about how I've changed this semester. For some reason, I am filled with rage and anger. I lash out at various things and just tweak. But it could also be the fact that lately I've begun to speak up about what I think. Even if it causes confrontation, or is different from other people's ideas. Oh well, I want to become a stronger person. I've also gone to places by myself. And made new friends. Last night I stayed in the back of the bus with people I don't normally talk to when kristen moved to the front. I had fun listening, and occasionally talking to them. And, drinking rum and coke on the way back from Springfield, MA is always a good time.
Hmmm maybe I need to change some of my habits when it comes to school and homework.