Times Like this Make You Think
I think I know why I have never been really good friends with anyone that has died. My closest has been Natalie, and I think since then I have put it in the back of my head that if you don't depend on someone else, if they pass on, or move away, you won't be as heartbroken. I have distanced myself from many people over the years, I have the tendency to push them away when I think they may hurt me. Like them going to college, or moving to another state. Even my roommates I would push away at the end of the year because I knew I wouldn't see them.
However, when someone you know passes on you still feel sad. You feel upset because you know what a great person they are. You know are amazingly funny they can be. And for some reason, everytime you think of them all you can remember is this crazy freshman picking her nose or putting grass in her teeth and rolling around on the soccer field before a practice. For some reasons memories of her in band or in the hallway don't come to mind. Rather the last time I saw her does. A house party, with only a few people there, and I was too distracted to ask what was going on in her life, if she was excited to be a senior in college, or anything of importance.
And with that, Kat I'm sorry I didn't get to know you better. I'm sorry we lost touch after I moved on with my life. But most of all, I'm sorry you didn't get to achieve all the many great things I know you would have done with your life. All of the many people's hearts you would've touch with your craziness. But know that you touched more than you probably thought you did. Rest in peace girl.
However, when someone you know passes on you still feel sad. You feel upset because you know what a great person they are. You know are amazingly funny they can be. And for some reason, everytime you think of them all you can remember is this crazy freshman picking her nose or putting grass in her teeth and rolling around on the soccer field before a practice. For some reasons memories of her in band or in the hallway don't come to mind. Rather the last time I saw her does. A house party, with only a few people there, and I was too distracted to ask what was going on in her life, if she was excited to be a senior in college, or anything of importance.
And with that, Kat I'm sorry I didn't get to know you better. I'm sorry we lost touch after I moved on with my life. But most of all, I'm sorry you didn't get to achieve all the many great things I know you would have done with your life. All of the many people's hearts you would've touch with your craziness. But know that you touched more than you probably thought you did. Rest in peace girl.