-sigh- J'adore tu, mon amore....
Well, I was planning on writing an entry today about how fun life seems to be at the moment and how in love I am with Toby. I was walking from class today, oddly enjoying the chill and admiring the whiteness of everything (No, Asha' that was not a racist statement) and I get a call from Toby. He's frantic. Totally 100% freaking out. Long story short, a woman was smoking crack while driving down his street with a baby in the car, and she was going about 60 in a 35, and she rammed Toby's car (He parks on the street) into a telephone pole. His car is completely totaled. It looks like one of those tie-dyed scrunchies I wore in elementary school. It's about half the siz it should be in length and the paint chipped away as well (hence the tie-dyed part) His grandma just bought that car for him four months ago. -sigh- Like seriously, everything bad comes in threes for him. And it's always at least once a month. He went to South Haven to his sister's to borrow her car for a while (Bless her) and for no reason it got towed, while he was still there, he hadn't even moved it. So I guess he has one more thing coming to him. I just hope it isn't us. He does have anger issues, but he recognized it tonight over the phone, after apologizing and just going to bed so he won't get mad at me...
Compared to him I am a spoiled brat. My mom is still alive, my dad pisses me off (As opposed to ignoring me) I have a house to come home to, I don't really have to work for the money I have...my mom does, but is making me pay her back slowly when i do get a job: Oh yeah anyone hiring? Granted, if anything like that happened to my car no one would buy me another one, but I also don't have bills to pay...
and then I got a letter from the state in the mail saying that I'm on probation....until July. Because I've gotten two tickets within six months of each other. Great. Not literally probation, I don't have a probation officer or anything, but I could still lose my liscence if I get another ticket. So now I piss everyone off at Western driving the speed limit or under. I guess it's just a new me. Officially I have not done any drugs in two months now. Maybe a little over I don't really keep track of exact dates. I really just don't want my schoolwork to fall behind.
I hate to use LJ to wine and complain, because I love using it as a way to check up on friends, see how they're doing, post something hilarious that you want to share, maybe a poem you want to share. Either way this place is awesome, Although only maybe two or three of my fifty friends update anymore. I think of all the bad things in my life (What my therapist says to never do) and I just wonder, "who have I wronged in my life? Who have I ever wished harm upon that could come back in karma ways?" I wish everyone the best in life, no joke. It's one of my faults. Even tara. She's a great girl, beautiful, who just needs a little help.
Thankyou to anyone who has read this entire thing, for listening to me ramble in the midst of solitude.
Compared to him I am a spoiled brat. My mom is still alive, my dad pisses me off (As opposed to ignoring me) I have a house to come home to, I don't really have to work for the money I have...my mom does, but is making me pay her back slowly when i do get a job: Oh yeah anyone hiring? Granted, if anything like that happened to my car no one would buy me another one, but I also don't have bills to pay...
and then I got a letter from the state in the mail saying that I'm on probation....until July. Because I've gotten two tickets within six months of each other. Great. Not literally probation, I don't have a probation officer or anything, but I could still lose my liscence if I get another ticket. So now I piss everyone off at Western driving the speed limit or under. I guess it's just a new me. Officially I have not done any drugs in two months now. Maybe a little over I don't really keep track of exact dates. I really just don't want my schoolwork to fall behind.
I hate to use LJ to wine and complain, because I love using it as a way to check up on friends, see how they're doing, post something hilarious that you want to share, maybe a poem you want to share. Either way this place is awesome, Although only maybe two or three of my fifty friends update anymore. I think of all the bad things in my life (What my therapist says to never do) and I just wonder, "who have I wronged in my life? Who have I ever wished harm upon that could come back in karma ways?" I wish everyone the best in life, no joke. It's one of my faults. Even tara. She's a great girl, beautiful, who just needs a little help.
Thankyou to anyone who has read this entire thing, for listening to me ramble in the midst of solitude.