Fuck all you guys
Im fucking tired of life now. All people do is fucking trow around my feelings just to make themselves feel better. Like Travis for instance. I told him I still kinda liked Dave last night and he like blew up in my face......we aren't even together. He basically told me that he was dissapointed in me and stuff like that. I dunno anymore. I wanna goto sleep at night and never wake up.
Yesterday I slept almost all day.....from 4:30 till 5:00 this morning. I don't wanna leave my room or talk to anybody anymore. This life is starting to suck more and more everyday. Everyday I drift father and father from the people I onced cared about. I am not happy.....I am far from. My faith in God is all I have left now. Travis no longer wants anything to do with me. At least thats what I got out of the whole situation, or conversation we had last night. I guess he stopped by when I was sleeping yesterday. Thank god I was sleeping, because I was not in the mood to see him or talk to him. I cried myself to sleep and this morning I felt like dying. I bet you guys don't know whats its like to wake up feeling like this everyday.
My medicine doesn't help.....it never has. SOmetimes it just makes things worse. What should I do, where should I go??? Im just so confused in my own thoughts. Travis is mad at me, me and my friends barely talk.....we do but only at school. My parents hate me, well except for my dad. My life is going nowhere.
Kara asked me if I wanted to sing again for the old band. They are puttin Yellow 5 back together and instead of playing the guitar for them like i used to, they want me to sing. I doubt I will tho......too many bad old memories with that band. DOn't think I can take anymore torture!!
Yesterday I slept almost all day.....from 4:30 till 5:00 this morning. I don't wanna leave my room or talk to anybody anymore. This life is starting to suck more and more everyday. Everyday I drift father and father from the people I onced cared about. I am not happy.....I am far from. My faith in God is all I have left now. Travis no longer wants anything to do with me. At least thats what I got out of the whole situation, or conversation we had last night. I guess he stopped by when I was sleeping yesterday. Thank god I was sleeping, because I was not in the mood to see him or talk to him. I cried myself to sleep and this morning I felt like dying. I bet you guys don't know whats its like to wake up feeling like this everyday.
My medicine doesn't help.....it never has. SOmetimes it just makes things worse. What should I do, where should I go??? Im just so confused in my own thoughts. Travis is mad at me, me and my friends barely talk.....we do but only at school. My parents hate me, well except for my dad. My life is going nowhere.
Kara asked me if I wanted to sing again for the old band. They are puttin Yellow 5 back together and instead of playing the guitar for them like i used to, they want me to sing. I doubt I will tho......too many bad old memories with that band. DOn't think I can take anymore torture!!