thanks guys
right now as far as going to SC August 17th..im not so sure thats going to happen. not because i dont want it to happen, but because i need $15,000 that i dont have, and as of this moment i have no way of getting. i cant get a loan w/o a co-signer and my parents wont sign with me incase anything were to happen they would lose the house.plus they are helping with my brother still. (understandable). so right now im $15,000 short for SC. and may 1st was plymouths deadline and i missed that so if i dont find a way to go to SC im not going to be going to college for my 1st year. TALK ABOUT SUCKING! do i stay here and work? do i go down to SC and work so that i have more insentive to get my ass in gear to go to CSU next august (plus i could establish residancy so i could pay instate prices instead of out of state)
but then theres everything going on with my last entry....GOD I CONFUSE MYSELF! and then stuff with my mom, that i dont really want to leave her at the moment.
doug, i just want to thank u. i know this entry goes against everything we ended our convo with in the car, but ive still got it all in my head. i know how u felt and im sorry. i wish i could change it all but i cant. 'sorry' will never change it, but like u said 'the smile, the seeing them happy, etc... all that somehow, in some SICK way makes it worth it.' i cried for the first time in months today...it was well overdue. thank you.
julie and jon...thanks 4 the comments guys...I LOVE YOU!
but then theres everything going on with my last entry....GOD I CONFUSE MYSELF! and then stuff with my mom, that i dont really want to leave her at the moment.
doug, i just want to thank u. i know this entry goes against everything we ended our convo with in the car, but ive still got it all in my head. i know how u felt and im sorry. i wish i could change it all but i cant. 'sorry' will never change it, but like u said 'the smile, the seeing them happy, etc... all that somehow, in some SICK way makes it worth it.' i cried for the first time in months today...it was well overdue. thank you.
julie and jon...thanks 4 the comments guys...I LOVE YOU!