your the only one who gets me like you do
Okay so....I really think I'm bipolar. Actually I've thought that since summer going into 8th grade....you may think I'm dumb for saying that, but some people know what I'm talking about....(Gina, Chelsea, Alicyn, Danielle T etc...)
We watched a movie on it in health today....they showed kids talking about what its like and stuff....it made me cry....because I know exactly how they feel-I'm the same way.
Sure I may seem perfectly normal...thats cause part of the time I do...but other times for no reason at all I just shut down and I feel totally not like myself and I hate it.
I always take what people say about me for more than what they'd ever mean....like even if someone is joking around and says something, even though they don't think i am, i still think i am and i take it really personally
I don't really care about writing this stuff in my livejournal cause sometimes its nice to get opinions, and if i am sick then its nice to get some advice.
I get sad, for no apparent reason, about every month or so. I'll just shut down and lock myself in my room and think about things that I wouldn't even ever think of during the other part of the month when I'm not feeling bad.
I could never talk to my parents about this cause they're doctors and ofcourse THEY KNOW EVERYTHING (my ass) and all they'd say is "your fine, you're not bipolar, you don't show any symptoms"...but they've never seen me the way I am when I feel bad....they wouldn't understand
When I'm on a high, I do things to try and stay that way because it feels so nice...so perfect...for example if i'm on a high while eating something, sometimes i just eat even more just because I feel so good and I don't want to come back down so i think maybe if I ate more of what I like my body would somehow be satisfied and keep my high...
I guess that would also explain alot about why I"m so insecure....and why I take things so personally....
but I have no idea...what do you think emo or depression? Because right now I'm falling to a low point and I hate it and I'm about to cry for no reason.