i'd follow you into the dark

[dancexdisaster]

it really trips me out how things change.
everything is CONSTANTLY changing.
weather it's the time, the days, the seasons, the years.
friendships, relationships, ...LIFE.
it's a trip.
last week everything made sense.
today, i can't make sense of ANYthing.
i don't even know what i'm DOing.

i feel incredibly happy
and incredibly sad at the same time.
but most of all,
i think im happy because i LET myself
feel sad.
it makes sense to me.

sometimes allwoing yourself to be
completely vulnerable is ok.

this says it all
(how i feel with whats going on
in my life RIGHT NOW):

Something I said?
Something I did?
What’s made you so defensive?
Something you heard?
Something you learned?
The season’s changing, it’s for the worse.

You used to call me on your break,
but you’ve been so busy.
You used to bring me tomato soup,
but you keep forgetting.
As the groundskeeper rakes up the October leaves,
It occurs to me, trees can’t hide anything.

Something I said?
Something I did?
You’ve been acting so distant.
Something you heard?
Something you learned?
The trees are barren,
the leaves have turned.
The days when we made it the world was green;
Now Autumn has fallen -
everything’s changed.

October leaves

I woke up this morning,
you were off to work.
No kisses, no coffee,
No morning paper.

--the goodlife

so yea, one day...
everyhting was GREAT.
the next...so distant.
no calls all of a sudden.
no texts.
no kisses.

everything always changes.
nothing will ever stay the same.