I feel like I need to write
Hmm.. well I just feel like I need to write in here. I haven't written for a while, so I miss it. I feel like this is my little outlet that I talk to all of my friends through. The musical is goin pretty good now, it's this Thursday and Friday at 7:30 if anyone would like to come. Brian Bosely is the star and he looks SOOOO good!! yummyumm! And a lot of black people play leads, so that's cool. I've made a lot of friends doing the musical, and a few bonds have grown stronger, as for the actual musical, it sux cause chorus was supposed to do 6 songs, but is now doing 3 and 4 lines of another song. The dance festival wasn't as great as I'd hoped, there were a lot of people, but I just didn't like the classes that much. I enjoyed the Weslyn trip more. I don't know at this point if I feel comfortable dating because of Edwin. A friend asked me out, and I dunno whether to take him up on that or not. I was horny like hell all day today which really sucked because of course I have no boyfriend to let out my horniness upon. I just dont' wanna wait till I'm 18 to have sex again, you know. Not that I did, right? lol.... I saw my bitch Lonny again! THe black Bi- guy at Weslyn because they danced Friday night, they did "Ice", the piece I love so very dearly. I miss Hanna. I miss McKayle. I miss Clare. I even miss the cheese. And even tho we don't see each other often I miss you too Anna. I feel a little alone, even tho I have no reason to. Especially since my Cap relationships are getting stronger. Hmm. Well I feel like I'm on this box on the outside looking in at myself, I feel so strange. Just now I was talking to Edwin and I dunno, it like jacked up our convo or something. I'm just getting into this weird state. Like I've been working really hard on school work and dance and shit, but I'm still trying to concentrate on friends. I need a car, I need a cell and I need a webcam. I can't wait for my birthday, 6 days! I'm not having a party or anything, but hopefully you all can do somethin on Saturday May 10!! Ima celebrate that day, it's the only day I have to celebrate! Hmm. I'm trying to not be so peppy and crazy because people don't seem to like that. And it annoys them, and I was so annoying as a lil girl and I didn't have any friends so i don't wanna be like that now. I'm toning it down. I just don't feel like Amy anymore. Today walking down the hall I just felt like I was someone else or something, it was weird. I don't like that, I like to be secure in myself.