I miss my hiphop
The one person in the whole wide world I wanna be with more than anyone else ( except Hanna of course...but the damn bitch is straight) I can't. And I lost my chance..maybe. If there was one. I told him that we should just be friends, why be serious when we're so far apart? Which still makes sense to me, it was the way I told him, was bad. Damnit. and I was soooo hoping my feelings for him would go away, but they haven't and i don't know how long it's going to take for them to go away. Edwin is on a trip right now in NYC, ATL and Boston. SOme visiting family, some visiting schools. I wanna be with him so bad, be there for him, talk to him. This is my first public entry in a long time for a good reason. I don't care who knows or sees this. Yes, I may have a minor interest in a couple other guys, but I don't know them very well yet, or feel anything remotely deep for them. Edwin I know inside and out and I still want to know more about, and it's killing me that I can't talk to him. I love you baby, wherever you are. And the things that have happened in this crazy month of June have made me see more and more how amazing he really is. But all things will work out in time, they have to.