goodbye summer
*today is the last day of my official summer, it wasn't so great. It hasnt yet sunk in that i am a junior, and school starts freakin tomorrow. uuugh There were some good points, like dance ((which was totally refreshing)) and the beach with kt ((bummer that we had to wait till the last day of summer to do stuff like that ha))
*I have to outline all this history still. Like I really want to be motivated, but then I look at everything there is to do and it's like I don't want to jump into it anymore.
*All of a sudden my moms trying to put all these bullshit rules on me, like having to be off the phone and computer by 10, what the hell I'm like almost 17. It's such bullshit. It's like she won't let me grow up.
*And then I hurt the most important person to me like without even realizing it. And I feel so bad about it. It was so unintentional. I don't want to change. I don't mean to change. I'm sorry.
*I have to outline all this history still. Like I really want to be motivated, but then I look at everything there is to do and it's like I don't want to jump into it anymore.
*All of a sudden my moms trying to put all these bullshit rules on me, like having to be off the phone and computer by 10, what the hell I'm like almost 17. It's such bullshit. It's like she won't let me grow up.
*And then I hurt the most important person to me like without even realizing it. And I feel so bad about it. It was so unintentional. I don't want to change. I don't mean to change. I'm sorry.