Le sigh.
I didn't write this, but I so could have, like three weeks ago. Four weeks ago. And the month before that.
Sometimes I wish....
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Reply to: pers-247167046@craigslist.org
Date: 2006-12-10, 10:56PM PST
I'm so glad we're friends, so glad, but I wish we weren't involved the way we are. Sometimes. Other times I'm thrilled about it. The problem I'm having is that I'm way too into you and I'm sure it will end badly for me. I think you see it, I'm pretty sure you know, but you need someone right now and you think I'll be able to handle it, or that it won't go too far. You give me too much credit and I don't help at all because I tell you I'm fine and that I don't care like I do. That isn't really fair to you but I know that if I told you all of this you would stop spending time with me and I don't want that. I'm not so far gone yet that I couldn't handle it, but I really like being around you and I have this secret hope that you will realize you feel the same way and decide that I'm what you want. That is why I stick around, I'm weak. It isn't realistic though, and I know that. You won't realize anything and you'll find someone else who is closer to your ideal and I'll be crushed, and I'm an idiot for staying. This is fun and convenient for you and it isn't that you don't care, you just don't care in the way that I want you to. I would never blame you for that, I just wish things could be different. You want very specific things and I would love to fit in to them. Too bad for me I'm your square peg. You aren't like anyone else, you make me feel good about myself and you make me feel like I could do anything, and should do anything. You make everything more fun and you put up with all my crap. You make me want to do everything in my power to make you happy, because that makes me happy. I love your smile, it really makes my day, and I love it the most when it is because of something I said or did. I wish I could mean more to you, but I don't really think that will ever happen. I hope I'm wrong, so much, but I hope most of all that I'll be lucky enough to know you for the rest of our lives because you are such a bright, sweet, wonderful person and I think you're doing an amazing job at living. You inspire me to do better with my own life.
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247167046
I guess it's comforting that other people have gone, and are going, through the same thing. I'm not an emotional mutant. And I don't feel this way anymore, obviously. Haha, oh boy do I not feel like this anymore, all that inspiring business? Hardly. But back then... maybe. Oh well. I wasn't kidding when I told Tom that now I think his Wall Method is the way to go. Hearts aren't meant to be worn on sleeves.
Sometimes I wish....
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Reply to: pers-247167046@craigslist.org
Date: 2006-12-10, 10:56PM PST
I'm so glad we're friends, so glad, but I wish we weren't involved the way we are. Sometimes. Other times I'm thrilled about it. The problem I'm having is that I'm way too into you and I'm sure it will end badly for me. I think you see it, I'm pretty sure you know, but you need someone right now and you think I'll be able to handle it, or that it won't go too far. You give me too much credit and I don't help at all because I tell you I'm fine and that I don't care like I do. That isn't really fair to you but I know that if I told you all of this you would stop spending time with me and I don't want that. I'm not so far gone yet that I couldn't handle it, but I really like being around you and I have this secret hope that you will realize you feel the same way and decide that I'm what you want. That is why I stick around, I'm weak. It isn't realistic though, and I know that. You won't realize anything and you'll find someone else who is closer to your ideal and I'll be crushed, and I'm an idiot for staying. This is fun and convenient for you and it isn't that you don't care, you just don't care in the way that I want you to. I would never blame you for that, I just wish things could be different. You want very specific things and I would love to fit in to them. Too bad for me I'm your square peg. You aren't like anyone else, you make me feel good about myself and you make me feel like I could do anything, and should do anything. You make everything more fun and you put up with all my crap. You make me want to do everything in my power to make you happy, because that makes me happy. I love your smile, it really makes my day, and I love it the most when it is because of something I said or did. I wish I could mean more to you, but I don't really think that will ever happen. I hope I'm wrong, so much, but I hope most of all that I'll be lucky enough to know you for the rest of our lives because you are such a bright, sweet, wonderful person and I think you're doing an amazing job at living. You inspire me to do better with my own life.
It's NOT ok to contact this poster with services or other commercial interests
247167046
I guess it's comforting that other people have gone, and are going, through the same thing. I'm not an emotional mutant. And I don't feel this way anymore, obviously. Haha, oh boy do I not feel like this anymore, all that inspiring business? Hardly. But back then... maybe. Oh well. I wasn't kidding when I told Tom that now I think his Wall Method is the way to go. Hearts aren't meant to be worn on sleeves.