crappiness
I am in a rut. Not a rut for my lovelife.. not at all.. (I have the best boyfriend in the universe). I'm talking about some of my friends. I dont understand why I always have to make the effort when they make little to none. I'm sick of waisting my time.
I'm making friends at school, and i am secure enough in myself that i know i will make more. I dont know why i bothers me so much.. but it does.
I am in this point in my life where i need support and where i need to have people around me who actually want to be around me. I want friendship to be a two-way street. and so often it isnt.
Why is that? Why is it that some people have to make more of an effort in a relationship than others?
Perhaps i am overreacting or expecting too much out of my friends.. or even man-kind.
I dont know what to have faith in anymore. I am sick of being disapointed. i am sick of zero support or effort from my 'so-called-friends' and i want things to change!
I think the problem is that my expectations have changed, but meanwhile, my friends have not. They still want to party in groups. Go to nightclubs that i hate on weekends, and hang out with emotionally stunted people. I need people in my life who understand the word compromise.. and are not afraid to use it.
I just want things to be different..
But I digress..
I'm making friends at school, and i am secure enough in myself that i know i will make more. I dont know why i bothers me so much.. but it does.
I am in this point in my life where i need support and where i need to have people around me who actually want to be around me. I want friendship to be a two-way street. and so often it isnt.
Why is that? Why is it that some people have to make more of an effort in a relationship than others?
Perhaps i am overreacting or expecting too much out of my friends.. or even man-kind.
I dont know what to have faith in anymore. I am sick of being disapointed. i am sick of zero support or effort from my 'so-called-friends' and i want things to change!
I think the problem is that my expectations have changed, but meanwhile, my friends have not. They still want to party in groups. Go to nightclubs that i hate on weekends, and hang out with emotionally stunted people. I need people in my life who understand the word compromise.. and are not afraid to use it.
I just want things to be different..
But I digress..