blah blah black sheep
So I feel a little up beat today.
For some reason I have a little hope.
I think it just might be the daytime
Each night I get into these moods that I don't even want to deal with
its such a bummer
I just feel so depressed at night.
maybe because I'm always alone
my mom goes to bed early,
and I'm so used to just staying up all night
I mean...I am a nocturnal.
So I just sit around and everyone in sac is busy
people in windsor are boring
and no one does anything at night
thats whats so nice about college
there is something going on ALL OF THE TIME
and if there isnt, its easy to start something
Finally got to talk to rene today, but he was just saying how he has a hold because of the signs and stuff, and how they won't let him get his classes. I feel like I brought this upon him, but also they are being very douchebaggy.
I want to talk to him.
but it seems that we can never get the time to.
I am thinking about going there for a week or something before school is out and before I have to go in.
I basically gave up on finding a job, and I'm ok with that
but my sanity is sacrificed.
There is no money.
I don't know if I can go back to sacramento.
Which is more important, friends or school?
I so much want to pick friends....but I love school
I'm never going to graduate
I hate relying on the parents
and I get so angry seeing rich people
I need clothes
I need shoes
I need a house
but nope.
for some reason god has put us through this, and it very difficult getting out
I'm sure we will eventually
but lj is for complaining right?
I want to start baking for my mom, but she doesn't want to let me
I don't know why.
I is hungary
later gatorrrrrrsss
For some reason I have a little hope.
I think it just might be the daytime
Each night I get into these moods that I don't even want to deal with
its such a bummer
I just feel so depressed at night.
maybe because I'm always alone
my mom goes to bed early,
and I'm so used to just staying up all night
I mean...I am a nocturnal.
So I just sit around and everyone in sac is busy
people in windsor are boring
and no one does anything at night
thats whats so nice about college
there is something going on ALL OF THE TIME
and if there isnt, its easy to start something
Finally got to talk to rene today, but he was just saying how he has a hold because of the signs and stuff, and how they won't let him get his classes. I feel like I brought this upon him, but also they are being very douchebaggy.
I want to talk to him.
but it seems that we can never get the time to.
I am thinking about going there for a week or something before school is out and before I have to go in.
I basically gave up on finding a job, and I'm ok with that
but my sanity is sacrificed.
There is no money.
I don't know if I can go back to sacramento.
Which is more important, friends or school?
I so much want to pick friends....but I love school
I'm never going to graduate
I hate relying on the parents
and I get so angry seeing rich people
I need clothes
I need shoes
I need a house
but nope.
for some reason god has put us through this, and it very difficult getting out
I'm sure we will eventually
but lj is for complaining right?
I want to start baking for my mom, but she doesn't want to let me
I don't know why.
I is hungary
later gatorrrrrrsss