hmm
so im thinking....the year (school year) is almost over. and a heck of a lot has happened. and its been fun and i made a ton of new friends but a rose must have its thorns right? it seems to me that everyone has affected me tremendously and i havent changed a single thing! its a really bad feeling and this summer i really want to do soemthing about it. i just cant stand knowing that my friends put in so much effort to be with me and i never give anything back. i suppose being there is enough a lot of the time but i wonder why i personally cant just give a little more than enough.
i also went to the portland actors conservatory's showing of defying gravity which was realyl good. and it made me think that the most real people i know are the people who, more than anything, love to be someone they arent...they are the actors. its weird and i think i have firgured out why i love being around drama people so much and its because they get out their need to be fake on stage so when it comes down to reality all you see is who they really are. its amazing.
i also went to the portland actors conservatory's showing of defying gravity which was realyl good. and it made me think that the most real people i know are the people who, more than anything, love to be someone they arent...they are the actors. its weird and i think i have firgured out why i love being around drama people so much and its because they get out their need to be fake on stage so when it comes down to reality all you see is who they really are. its amazing.