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today's been a classic fat day. you know...you can feel how fat you are at all times even when you're just standing still and for some reason you're constantly reminded of it. clothes don't fit right, everything's uncomfortable, even music doesn't sound as good. plus i get in a sour mood around my family especially my mother. she always finds a way to tell me how fat i am. and how she wishes i'd "go anorexic" again. hah. i suppose some people would be envious of me for having a mom who isn't breathing down your neck about eating and getting too skinny. but right now i'm nowhere near a "dangerous" weight so i have other fish to fry. i've eaten so much today. and soon i'm going out to dinner and drinks. great. haha i love how so many things that normal people would get excited about terrify me. like going out with friends, going out to dinner, partying. hehe.
peace, i'm out
peace, i'm out