Oh summertime

[dancerchristini]

Summer is here and I'm in love with it. I love the warm/hot, sunny weather, I love my job, I love summer nights. All in all, it's a great season...and all together far too short. I can't believe it's already July and what with graduation parties, birthdays, plays, etc, it's flying by. But I'm determined to enjoy every minute and not let stupid things bother me. I need to stop bottling my emotions up, because I have a tendency to do that and then explode on people, even if they don't deserve it. I don't know why I do it. I guess I feel that because I'm generally a cheerful, optimistic person, it wouldn't do to show any negative emotions, nor do I want to annoy everyone else with that. But damn, it is hard pretending to be happy and keeping up appearances when you feel so different on the inside. I guess it's the whole idea of growing up that's just difficult. Friends are moving farther away, getting jobs, getting married...my sister was engaged when she was my age...

Anyways, this went off in a direction I wasn't expecting. So I'm off to reclaim my childhood and plan games for camp on Monday, then I'm spending the day in the pool. Enjoy the beautiful weather :)