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I went to church today and the homily really hit home with me
"God is love, communion and unity. We are built in the image of God. Therefore we are most God like when we are in love, give and receive love. We all have a desire to find people we can share that love with."
I've been trying to convince myself that I don't need love. That I'm strong enough without it and it would do me no good at this point in my life. Well I was partly right but very wrong as well.
I am strong enough by myself. It has taken me a while to see that, but I know now. I can be happy and be me without a boy.
However, I was wrong to think that love would do me no good. I was hurt so I closed myself to the option of love at all. I didn't want to hurt again. I thought I was weak for desiring to be loved. I thought it was wrong to need someone to give me reassurance and support every now and then. And that it was wrong to long for someone to hold me and kiss me gently and show me how much he loved me.
But it's not wrong. I am not weak for feeling this way. In fact I think it shows that I have grown stronger. That I am now open again to the possibility of love.
Yes I still hurt from the past and will never forget that love. It changed me in so many ways and made me who I am now. For that I am thankful. Do I still sometimes wish it were different and it had worked out the way I wanted? YES...everyday. But I have accepted it and trust in God that things happened the way they did for a reason. He has something else planned for me and I put all my faith in him that he will make it worth it.
I'm ready to move on. Going to college will help me even more with the healing, I believe this, I know this.
I'm still living for tomorrow
I'm living for today
Let's make this world
A better place to live
Stop to take
Start to give
Love's got the power
To get it done
To stop the pain
"God is love, communion and unity. We are built in the image of God. Therefore we are most God like when we are in love, give and receive love. We all have a desire to find people we can share that love with."
I've been trying to convince myself that I don't need love. That I'm strong enough without it and it would do me no good at this point in my life. Well I was partly right but very wrong as well.
I am strong enough by myself. It has taken me a while to see that, but I know now. I can be happy and be me without a boy.
However, I was wrong to think that love would do me no good. I was hurt so I closed myself to the option of love at all. I didn't want to hurt again. I thought I was weak for desiring to be loved. I thought it was wrong to need someone to give me reassurance and support every now and then. And that it was wrong to long for someone to hold me and kiss me gently and show me how much he loved me.
But it's not wrong. I am not weak for feeling this way. In fact I think it shows that I have grown stronger. That I am now open again to the possibility of love.
Yes I still hurt from the past and will never forget that love. It changed me in so many ways and made me who I am now. For that I am thankful. Do I still sometimes wish it were different and it had worked out the way I wanted? YES...everyday. But I have accepted it and trust in God that things happened the way they did for a reason. He has something else planned for me and I put all my faith in him that he will make it worth it.
I'm ready to move on. Going to college will help me even more with the healing, I believe this, I know this.
I'm still living for tomorrow
I'm living for today
Let's make this world
A better place to live
Stop to take
Start to give
Love's got the power
To get it done
To stop the pain