it's all coming to an end

[dancerchic1405]

Well yesterday was my first and last competition this year. More importantly it was the last competition for high school ever! This year was definately nothing i expected and yet at the end its more than i had started to expect. Thank you girls so much for pulling together and making htis happen for the seniors. WE got 2nd place...it was only outta 3 teams so i feel like a loser saying that but we were really close to the 1st place team and beat the 3rd place team by quite a bit. I also got 2nd in leadership, which most of you wont understand what that is...but yea i am very proud of myself. So now its over :( we have no more games to dance at, no more competitions. But dance is not over for me. i dont think it will ever be over. whichever college i go to, im going to dance. I have my dance audition at uofm on friday! i am so nervous...i know many people have more important things to pray about but if u cant find a minute say a quick prayer for me on friday to do really really good! Im still not sure where im going for college, but hopefully i will know by the end of this month.

So me and emma decided we are gonna say fuck prom and just get dressed up and go up north. We are gonna get wasted and stay the night up there. plus i dont have any idea what to do for a date and i dont really want to look just to realize that theres nobody that would want to go wtih me. so the money wed spend on big expensive dresses, and the tickets and such will all go to getting some kegs and we'll just have a huge bash...anyone want in? lol

Im getting a little better lately...my feelings havent changed and i still dont want to accept certain things, but at least today i got through the day without crying or even feeling like i would cry. Thanks to all my friends who have tried to help, i havent talked about much cuz i really cant but its good to know u still care!

well im done now....maybe i wont wait so long next time to update...we'll see.