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Grr. I have to do my bar training shift Wed. night so I have to miss tap class AGAIN. Fuck James. Fuck him up his stupid ass. Ahh and speaking of stupid James, he informed me today that next month our new promotion is seafood pastas and some sort of paella that Red Lobster's putting out. Except he called it "pah-ella". This was after he told me that he's "glad he can speak Spanish." Um. I don't speak Spanish, but I know the names of Spanish foods. And I'm not the manager of a SEAFOOD RESTAURANT. Sheesh. I just love that this moron treats me like I'm the stupidest person he's ever met too, that's just fantastic.
OK, enough complaining about work.
I'm super tempted to go back to RiRa's alone, maybe earlier in the evening and just have a couple drinks so I can have an excuse to talk to Alan again. But...I don't want to look too desperate. What to do what to do...never know what to do...
Went to a new coffeehouse w/Sarah and Megan (Eddie's girlfriend) yesterday. It was v. cute and the coffee was good and quite reasonably priced. I hope it stays there! Everything like that usually closes after a couple months around here.
But on the way there we were listening to This Day An Age again. And...GOD. They rock. I want to see them live again! They're playing Sat. in this Battle of the Bands thing where if they win they get cash, paid studio time, and an mp3 on the front page of mtv.com. That'd be awesome and I really think they can do it; those guys are fabulously talented. They've just been really growing on me recently for some reason. And I know I shouldn't want to see Chris again because of that whole mess, but...I really do. Am I that PATHETIC? No, not really. OK, yeah, I'm pathetic. But geez he's cute. And SO talented. And anybody who's best friends with Jason and Sean and Ryan and Kevin is OK in my book, cause they're all great guys. I just...I don't know. I know Sarah and Kim are sick of me asking them "So, have you seen Chris lately?" but they don't understand what kind of situation I'm in here. I'm single, as usual. And I live in Gastonia where I see nobody except the losers I work with and my parents. I don't go out, I don't even go to MOVIES. I just read and surf the internet and go to dance classes when I'm not working. They, on the other hand, have wonderful boyfriends who worship the ground they walk on. It's easy for someone who HAS someone to be like "Oh, forget about him, you'll find someone new." Oh yeah? Well you haven't had to find anybody for 2 years; you've had a perfect boyfriend. It's not that fucking easy. Or maybe it is and I'm just a big fucking loser who CAN'T find anybody. So sue me, maybe I get fixated on one person. It's not like there's anythign ELSE I can do.
Alright. I'm gonna go take a nap. This goddamn Atkins diet is making me EXHAUSTED.
OK, enough complaining about work.
I'm super tempted to go back to RiRa's alone, maybe earlier in the evening and just have a couple drinks so I can have an excuse to talk to Alan again. But...I don't want to look too desperate. What to do what to do...never know what to do...
Went to a new coffeehouse w/Sarah and Megan (Eddie's girlfriend) yesterday. It was v. cute and the coffee was good and quite reasonably priced. I hope it stays there! Everything like that usually closes after a couple months around here.
But on the way there we were listening to This Day An Age again. And...GOD. They rock. I want to see them live again! They're playing Sat. in this Battle of the Bands thing where if they win they get cash, paid studio time, and an mp3 on the front page of mtv.com. That'd be awesome and I really think they can do it; those guys are fabulously talented. They've just been really growing on me recently for some reason. And I know I shouldn't want to see Chris again because of that whole mess, but...I really do. Am I that PATHETIC? No, not really. OK, yeah, I'm pathetic. But geez he's cute. And SO talented. And anybody who's best friends with Jason and Sean and Ryan and Kevin is OK in my book, cause they're all great guys. I just...I don't know. I know Sarah and Kim are sick of me asking them "So, have you seen Chris lately?" but they don't understand what kind of situation I'm in here. I'm single, as usual. And I live in Gastonia where I see nobody except the losers I work with and my parents. I don't go out, I don't even go to MOVIES. I just read and surf the internet and go to dance classes when I'm not working. They, on the other hand, have wonderful boyfriends who worship the ground they walk on. It's easy for someone who HAS someone to be like "Oh, forget about him, you'll find someone new." Oh yeah? Well you haven't had to find anybody for 2 years; you've had a perfect boyfriend. It's not that fucking easy. Or maybe it is and I'm just a big fucking loser who CAN'T find anybody. So sue me, maybe I get fixated on one person. It's not like there's anythign ELSE I can do.
Alright. I'm gonna go take a nap. This goddamn Atkins diet is making me EXHAUSTED.